March 8th, Clear ☀

Kim In-woo was still lying listlessly. His gaze kept facing empty space. He didn’t seem to be crying, but maybe it would be better if he did.

***

March 9th, Clear ☀

Suddenly Kim In-woo attempted suicide. The android discovered him trying to hang himself, subdued him, and treated him.

Though I knew Kim In-woo was already safe since the android protected him, I was anxious. I threw away everything, Foundation Day and all, and returned home. Raseti tried to stop me, and Ezel gave me suspicious looks, but I couldn’t stand it.

Kim In-woo was just crying with a dazed face. Only when I entered the cage did his expression come back to life.

Breaking away from the android at once, Kim In-woo ran over and checked for a long time if I was hurt anywhere. After confirming there was nothing wrong, Kim In-woo started crying again.

He said he thought I had been captured by those aliens and died helplessly, and that he felt he couldn’t endure anymore without me. That seems to be why he attempted suicide.

Kim In-woo said that if I was gone too in a place like this, he’d rather die, that I was his everything.

And, Kim In-woo.

<I like you, hyung.>

Confessed to me.

…

What nonsense is this?

I was very flustered for a moment. So without thinking, I sprayed sleeping gas on Kim In-woo. I could only think about running away from this situation.

What is this all about?

The android standing beside looked at me as if I was pathetic. Seems like it still had room to be broken one more time even after being smashed last time. When I glared at it, the android ran away.

To be honest, for a moment I thought should I accept it?

Because… Kim In-woo likes me as a romantic interest, and likes me enough to commit suicide without me, and says I’m his everything, so if I reject him, he might die again.

That assumption itself is crazy thinking. Accept what exactly?

Kim In-woo is a human I brought as a pet. Of course, I don’t think of Kim In-woo as just a pet human anymore. I don’t think I can’t have emotional exchanges with humans either. In some ways, Kim In-woo was emotionally far superior to me who only lived killing people.

But still. Even excluding now, I brought Kim In-woo for that purpose, doted on him that way, and even helped with m*sturbation. Dating such a partner…

Isn’t it bestiality?

…

No, of course, Kim In-woo is human. Not an animal. I’m not particularly thinking of him as an animal and considering it bestiality. But still, no, I really, does this make any sense?

Writing this helps me calm down a bit.

Well, maybe it can’t be helped from Kim In-woo’s perspective. Because I’m the only human for Kim In-woo. So what should I do? Right, if he sees other humans, he’ll gradually get better…

Right.

I had been thinking about it for a while. That Kim In-woo needs other humans. He needed other humans beside him, not <Lee Sun-ho> who tells lies from birth. Of course, I had not the slightest thought of sending Kim In-woo back to the training facility.

I guess I’ll have to send Kim In-woo back to Earth.

To where he wants to be, not ‘a place like this’.

***

March 10th, Clear ☀

I asked Kim In-woo what he would choose if he could only choose one between me and returning to Earth.

Though it might be obvious, Kim In-woo got very angry at my question. The reason for his anger was <Stop saying this bullshit and just reject me properly if you’re going to>.

But I was serious. Kim In-woo acts precariously like he’ll die without me. But even if I keep him here, he’ll continue living a precarious life.

When I kept asking, Kim In-woo got angry and then hit me once out of frustration. Then he said I was more important.

…

This is a big problem…

I just want to keep him here and live together.

***

March 14th, Cloudy ☁

Feeling I couldn’t send Kim In-woo away by myself, I honestly confessed everything to Raseti.

From the start, I needed someone’s cooperation to send Kim In-woo to Earth right away since I had stepped away from work. Raseti, who was still active in the military, was an appropriate discussion partner.

After hearing my explanation, Raseti, as expected, jumped up and down in anger. And for a long while poured out curses about Ezel. They seemed to want to curse at me too but was holding back, grinding their teeth.

Raseti, who barely calmed down, fully supported the plan to send Kim In-woo to Earth. However, when I said I would follow Kim In-woo, they were terribly shocked. They persuaded me that not only would Kim In-woo not want that, but if I suddenly disappeared, Ezel would notice and try to eliminate Kim In-woo.

It wasn’t particularly that I was convinced by Raseti’s persuasion, but I also agreed that I needed to be wary of Ezel. Ezel, who had firmly built up wealth and power over a long time, was difficult to stop alone except by me. It would be simple to kill them but they’re someone I can’t kill.

Besides, maybe Kim In-woo could live well alone on Earth better than expected… The reason Kim In-woo clings to <Lee Sun-ho> now is because he’s the only human with him in this unsafe place.

In the end, I had no choice but to agree to Raseti’s plan. Raseti said there was no need to delay unnecessarily, and suggested we take care of it right away. They seemed anxious that I might be capricious due to depression. Though I said it was fine since my depression wasn’t severe now, Raseti, who had watched me closely for many years, didn’t believe me.

I was persuaded by Raseti’s words again. To send Kim In-woo away right now.

Instead of becoming <Lee Sun-ho>, I returned to Kim In-woo’s cage in my original form. Unlike when I was in <Lee Sun-ho>’s form recently, Kim In-woo was very wary as soon as he saw the real me.

I carefully picked up Kim In-woo one last time. Though I knew Kim In-woo hated this, I indulged myself since it was the last time.

In my hands, Kim In-woo whimpered and spewed curses. The swearing just wouldn’t stop. Though I now knew what he was cursing about, he was so lovable. I nuzzled his small cheek and lightly kissed the crown of his head. During this, I could feel Kim In-woo trembling in my hands.

No matter how much Kim In-woo likes <Lee Sun-ho>, this is ultimately the essence of our relationship. My wish for Kim In-woo to call me <Radel> instead of the fake name <Lee Sun-ho>… is forever a luxury.

Engraving the sight of trembling Kim In-woo in my eyes, I handed him over to Raseti.

Raseti put Kim In-woo to sleep and left my mansion.