February 10th, Snow ☃

There was a brief lull in filming due to the lead actor’s circumstances.

I hoped In-woo, who had been tired lately, would get some good rest during the remaining time, but he suggested we go out. This year, In-woo is twenty-three in Korean age. He’s still young. Thankfully, he’s bursting with energy.

However, since filming was set to resume tomorrow morning, we couldn’t go far. We quickly planned a nearby travel route. We were planning to eat something delicious and visit an arboretum.

We only had one day left, but quite a bit of time was spent just moving around. Cars are too slow. In the past, I would have definitely complained, but now I don’t mind it so much.

Not just in Arkea, but even among the most advanced species, there were quite a few who preferred old customs. I couldn’t understand the comfort found in slow and inconvenient things before, but now I can.

Because it’s slow, there’s room to enjoy. As long as we’re not rushed for time, slowly driving and looking at the scenery outside has its own charm. Watching In-woo as he looks at the scenery is a very enjoyable way to pass the boring time.

Above all, honestly, car s*x is the best.

The first time we had car s*x was near the filming location.

That day, the lead actor made many mistakes so the waiting time dragged on endlessly, and In-woo, whose turn would come last, had nothing to do but kill time.

So I brought him to the car to get some proper rest. But once we were alone, In-woo got excited right away. It was probably because we’d only been holding hands while sleeping these past few nights, as he was tired from filming scenes where he had significant screen time. In-woo climbed onto my seat, kissed me, and whimpered cutely.

I too was quite excited, smelling In-woo’s body scent filling the narrow car without automatic ventilation. In-woo’s light weight settled on my body, and now quite familiar with s*x, he touched my c*ck with desperate eyes.

Is this what they call a feast laid out before you? Anyway, it wasn’t a situation where I could exercise restraint. Though no one would have noticed, my pheromones that I had thoroughly marked In-woo with during our last s*x had long since faded.

So I hurriedly undressed In-woo and had s*x. Since the clothes In-woo was wearing were for filming and couldn’t get stained, he took everything off from the start. Under the shadows in a corner of the somewhat dark parking lot, In-woo’s pure white n*ked body shone dazzlingly. I casually draped my padded jacket over him. The sight of n*ked In-woo with just my clothes loosely covering him was too stimulating even thinking about it now.

I wanted to move vigorously, but if the car shook, other people might notice.

Of course, I had placed suggestions on all humans walking around not to notice the car, but since In-woo didn’t know that, whenever I moved intensely, he desperately shook his head saying not to, while holding his breath.

I drove In-woo wild, holding his waist and shaking his light body this way and that. In-woo kept moaning and panting on top of me, but was extremely tense about someone possibly seeing.

But adorably enough, In-woo, worried about being caught, was much more sensitive than usual. Despite all that, his inner walls clenched around my c*ck so tightly as if trying to cut it off. Clutching my shirt that he was wearing as usual, In-woo twisted his waist helplessly and rubbed his head against my shoulder and neck. It was such a small and pitiful gesture.

While barely restraining myself from wanting to bite and suck marks all over In-woo’s body, I lightly spanked his bottom instead. The lewd In-woo was weak to all stimulation in bed. For a moment he forgot we were in a car and screamed loudly, then immediately turned bright red all over with embarrassment and shame, and started to sob.

I don’t like it when In-woo cries. But after months of experience, I’ve realized that In-woo crying in bed is quite cute.

I soothed In-woo who was worried about being heard outside while thoroughly thrusting into him.

What was meant to be quick s*x almost ended up with knotting before I finally came to my senses. Even with suggestions clearing the surroundings, if there was no reaction to excessive noise, it might make In-woo suspicious.

Though it seemed there was still plenty of time until In-woo’s filming, I let him go and quickly cleaned him up with wet wipes. I felt guilty about taking In-woo in such a shabby place, but when he nibbled my cheek and whispered that it was good even though it was hard, all negative emotions flew away and only good memories remained.

Since then, the car has been put to good use. I’m glad I bought a spacious one.

Today, In-woo seemed quite tired, so I wanted to let him rest properly.

I searched through the minds of passing local taxi drivers and found quite a good restaurant. There was supposedly a delicious seafood soup restaurant, so I took Kim In-woo there and fed him until he was full.

After feeding him and getting him in the car, I kneaded his thin stomach, but he swatted my hand away very sensitively. He was needlessly self-conscious even though he hadn’t gained any fat. He’s still so thin, I wish he would gain some weight.

Actually, though In-woo appears fine, he’s still not completely okay. Sometimes he has nightmares and stays up all night unable to sleep. That’s all my fault.

…….

Well, I try not to think about these things in front of In-woo. These are just thoughts that come up while writing this journal.

When I get depressed, In-woo acts overly bright trying to take care of me. I don’t want to burden In-woo. It’s really absurd that In-woo is trying hard for my sake when it’s because of me.

In-woo said he would work out hard to build abs once filming is over. That would be cute too. Though I don’t think it will work out well. Kim In-woo isn’t the type to build muscle easily.

I hadn’t said anything, but In-woo suddenly grabbed my collar. Then he picked a fight saying not to sneer at him. When I said I wasn’t sneering but being realistic, he glared at me. Then after pretending to be angry some more, he kissed me.

Though I meant to let him rest, we ended up not resting again. Our plans to go to the arboretum ended up being finished in the car and hotel instead.

Instead, I gave a massage to In-woo’s entire body that had become limp with exhaustion. In-woo kept repeating like sleep talk that I was too good and that he loved me while smiling broadly, before drifting off to sleep.

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March 22nd, Cloudy ☁

In-woo’s filming schedule has all finished. Though it seems the lead actors’ filming will continue a bit longer, anyway we’ve become free.

In-woo seemed quite proud of properly finishing his first proper filming. Seeing him trail off saying he’d never properly filmed before, I thought it was absolutely right to have caught and beaten up that bastard of a manager or whatever he was.

We spent time leisurely at home for a while.

One day was filled entirely with sleep. I pretended to sleep but watched In-woo after he fell completely asleep and woke up. Looking at this pretty face, my heart hurt thinking about how he suffered through the cold winter for three months, but I also felt proud.

That bastard director insisted on pushing In-woo into the sea on a cold winter day. Even though I tried to stop it, In-woo completely fell for the director’s words about it being a good scene. If the movie doesn’t succeed after suffering like this, I will socially destroy that bastard director who was stubborn in winter.

But Kim In-woo passionately acting in the cold winter sea was incredibly cool. In that moment, Kim In-woo was overwhelming. In the moment when he was running toward what he wanted, In-woo was like the sun burning itself to shine.

I feel like I fall for In-woo again every moment.

After all, Kim In-woo made proper emotions take root in my frozen world.

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April 2nd, Clear ☀

Today I went grocery shopping with In-woo at the supermarket. While shopping together, I said that once he becomes very famous soon, he won’t be able to show his face at the supermarket. In-woo laughed a lot, saying I was counting my chickens before they hatched.

But I was certain. That In-woo would be very successful as an actor. Who could possibly not love In-woo when they see him? It was nearly impossible.

We cooked with the ingredients we bought from the supermarket. We used a recipe seen on YouTube but the result was mediocre. It wasn’t terribly bad but wasn’t delicious either.

I always want to feed In-woo good things so it was quite disappointing. But In-woo ate all the food saying it was delicious. Watching In-woo eat well reminded me of a hamster stuffing its cheeks full of food. When I first saw In-woo, he was about as small as how I feel looking at hamsters now.

He was really cute. Though it’s probably not a memory In-woo wants to recall…….

After finishing the meal, we played games we had bought before. Both In-woo and I were just average in skill. Though we played diligently, neither of our skills improved much. Thanks to that, we had good matches every time.