April 15th, Cloudy ☁

Kim In-woo made a friend. A twenty-seven-year-old male named Seo Jae-hyun.

Kim In-woo met Seo Jae-hyun when he went alone to a café in front of the apartment complex. Following my advice that it would be better not to rely too much on each other, Kim In-woo had been going to nearby places alone. Though going out was still somewhat burdensome for him, so he didn’t venture far…

Seo Jae-hyun approached Kim In-woo first while he was seriously contemplating the menu. Starting with questions like whether he lived here despite meeting for the first time, he kept asking pointless questions such as what was tasty at this café. Kim In-woo, who was initially wary, eventually fell for Seo Jae-hyun’s smooth talk. They chatted pleasantly for a while before parting ways.

And I just finished listening to Kim In-woo going on at length about Seo Jae-hyun. Apparently, Seo Jae-hyun lives alone in another building of this apartment complex and invited Kim In-woo to visit him later.

So now I’m planning to thoroughly search through Seo Jae-hyun’s mind.

It would be terrible if this trash somehow negatively influences my flower-like Kim In-woo, wouldn’t it?

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Seo Jae-hyun is a person without major issues.

He approached Kim In-woo with somewhat ulterior motives since he’s attracted to men, but he did have enough conscience to hesitate after hearing Kim In-woo’s age. Still, unable to properly give up, he seemed to have decided to try being close friends like brothers even if they couldn’t date.

No criminal record, two relationships that both ended amicably, good interpersonal relationships, set to inherit a fairly large company, no financial problems, no bad drinking habits, doesn’t smoke, and his recent health checkup showed no issues.

No major flaws.

Of course, he has shortcomings. He’s old compared to Kim In-woo, and his previous partners weren’t satisfied with their relationships with him. Kim In-woo feels pleasure so well… I don’t want Kim In-woo living a life where his s*xual desires aren’t fulfilled.

S*xual desires…

Come to think of it, my rut will arrive around June in Earth time. I should prepare an appropriate excuse to separate from Kim In-woo for a while.

Well, my rut isn’t the important issue here.

For now, I’ll have to keep an eye on his relationship with Seo Jae-hyun. While he’s not someone who’ll cause problems, so I probably won’t need to search his mind again… In any case, I just hope things work out happily for Kim In-woo.

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April 17th, Cloudy ☁

I asked Kim In-woo to buy me a car.

Kim In-woo seemed taken aback by my request at first, but soon nodded. When I asked him to get a nice car since we’re buying one anyway, Kim In-woo smiled. When he offered to buy me a house instead, I declined that.

Anyway, since Kim In-woo recently received more money from Raseti, he’ll probably get me a nice car. Kim In-woo complained to Raseti about why they weren’t compensating me. Raseti then slandered me, saying ‘there’s no money to give to a criminal like Lee Sun-ho.’

Of course, Raseti’s words didn’t work well. Kim In-woo believes in me. Sweet Kim In-woo.

Kim In-woo asked if I found riding in cars comfortable, but that’s not really why I want to buy one. The buses, subways, and taxis I was riding for the first time in my life were quite interesting. Walking while holding hands with Kim In-woo was nice too.

Actually, it’s Kim In-woo who suffers without a car. Kim In-woo doesn’t have much stamina. He should exercise bit by bit, but stamina isn’t something that develops overnight. Moreover, considering Kim In-woo’s childhood, he wasn’t born with a particularly healthy constitution.

The biggest reason I want to buy a car is because Seo Jae-hyun tried to make moves on Kim In-woo using his car as an excuse.

The incident started this morning.

I was planning to go to the department store with Kim In-woo. As the weather was getting warmer, I needed more clothes. Kim In-woo has lots of clothes, but my body was too big to share his.

Kim In-woo was the one who first suggested going to the department store. Recently, Kim In-woo seemed more comfortable spending money. His increasing expenditure was desirable. If I could have my way, I’d want to buy him not just an apartment or a commercial building, but an entire planet made of expensive minerals…

Anyway, that’s how we ended up going quite far with Kim In-woo. Even though I tried to persuade him to go to the gym, he was too lazy and kept sticking to the floor, so I deliberately decided we should take the bus to get him moving. It wasn’t that inconvenient since it wasn’t even that far. We could just take a taxi on the way back when we’d have lots of shopping bags.

But then we coincidentally ran into Seo Jae-hyun who interfered with the exercise. The guy asked why we were walking and said he’d give us a ride since he was heading out too, and kind Kim In-woo couldn’t refuse his advances. The clueless bastard didn’t even realize Kim In-woo needed the exercise.

So I ended up heading to the department store in Seo Jae-hyun’s car with Kim In-woo.

In the car, Seo Jae-hyun watched me warily. Since I had been examining his mind ever since we met him, I could clearly see what he was thinking.

Seo Jae-hyun was sizing me up. When he asked what kind of relationship I had with Kim In-woo, I answered that we were friends living together. Seo Jae-hyun arbitrarily decided that we were lovers speaking indirectly.

As expected, this guy isn’t suitable for Kim In-woo. How could someone who spouts nonsensical delusions and arbitrarily judges others’ relationships be suitable for Kim In-woo?

Kim In-woo needs someone more accepting than Seo Jae-hyun. Of course, they shouldn’t be as old as Seo Jae-hyun. Someone of similar age or younger would be better. If they’re younger, would they be a minor? Then according to Korean standards, should we wait a bit before meeting?

Anyway, younger is better. They should die after Kim In-woo, so they can take care of Kim In-woo’s funeral, right?

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April 18th, Clear ☀

Thinking about Kim In-woo’s death made me so sad I wanted to die. I was so sad that I felt my depression might relapse. It’s unbearable.

Yesterday, I stopped writing in my journal and took out beer from the refrigerator to drink. Though I probably wouldn’t get drunk, I wanted to at least feel better. Kim In-woo discovered this and drank with me, so we drank and talked together. Then Kim In-woo fell asleep by himself. I fell asleep while hugging the sleeping Kim In-woo and touching him here and there to confirm that he was alive.

So I completely forgot to finish the journal. I’ll continue writing the record for April 17th.

Yesterday, after hearing that Kim In-woo and I were friends, Seo Jae-hyun seemed to have discovered some kind of possibility.

He doesn’t know his place. Since I had already deemed Seo Jae-hyun unsuitable, he looked extremely presumptuous to me. I even felt the urge to knead his mind.

When he offered to give us a ride back after we got out of the car, I really had trouble controlling the urge to mess with his head. It would have been very easy to change the nature of his feelings for Kim In-woo into pure friendship in his mind. But since Raseti contacted me the night before last and begged me to behave, I barely managed to hold back.

Kim In-woo declined saying he didn’t need a car, but this tactless guy told him to call anytime he needed a ride. Not knowing my desire to make him exercise, Kim In-woo seemed somewhat tempted because he didn’t want to walk…

The conclusion is that I need a car too. It would be better to just make him exercise separately and drive around rather than block these advances.

Everything I’ve given to Kim In-woo came from my pocket. Would a car be an issue with my wealth? If I had to put a price on it, even buying this Earth wouldn’t be difficult.

But Lee Sun-ho was in no position to buy a car. Because he had no money. Even the clothes without any special features that we bought at the department store were paid for with Kim In-woo’s card first.

If I hadn’t suddenly popped out at the Han River, I would have somehow manipulated the situation so Lee Sun-ho would necessarily have lots of money to spend freely.

Should I have won the lottery or something? It would be good to gradually establish some foundation on Earth in any way. So I can use it when needed.

Or I could go to a casino and win some money. As long as it’s not rigged, nothing is easier for me than gambling.