April 27th, Clear ☀

It’s our first anniversary of dating.

We came on a trip as planned before. Today was the first day of our trip.

Now that he’s gotten his passport and his fears have disappeared, In-woo suggested going to an overseas resort with good water and air. Of course, I was more than welcoming of the idea.

For several days before, In-woo had piled up travel books and searched the internet, listing lots of places he wanted to visit. Since In-woo isn’t really the planning type, distributing the schedule was my job.

After booking the plane tickets, In-woo got excited about duty-free shopping. When I asked why not just buy things normally, he said he wanted to try it at least once. It was cute seeing Kim In-woo doing things one by one that he had wanted to try before.

Despite all that preparation for the trip, as soon as we entered the hotel, we spent the whole day in bed without taking a single step outside. Of course, that too was an amazing day.

***

June 19th, Cloudy ☁

Kim In-woo is lately hooked on web novels he reads on the internet. So he spends all day holding his tiny phone reading novels. Saying the author writes so well, wondering what happens next, he wouldn’t put his phone down at all.

Finally, curious about what he was reading, I read along with him.

Actually, novels weren’t really my taste. What meaning could there be in made-up illusions? But thinking that I was sharing In-woo’s enjoyment made it quite watchable. I read through each novel he was reading together with him.

The novels In-woo read weren’t just one or two. Most were about unfortunate protagonists gaining some kind of power and becoming successful, but as I read them, I became suspicious if he was really reading them just for entertainment.

Surely he’s not regretting everything? Such doubt took root in me.

Of course, being captured by me must have been a horrible experience for him, but does he want to undo even dating me after that? Or does he want to meet someone better than me…?

As I write this, something occurs to me. This morning, didn’t In-woo skip the morning kiss? When I tried to kiss him, he seemed somewhat annoyed and burrowed into the blankets. Surely he hasn’t gotten sick of me clinging to him pathetically?

I’ll need to watch this a bit more.

Anyway, what I originally meant to write about was something else.

Among the novels In-woo reads, there was a protagonist who had the skill to read others’ thoughts. As soon as I saw it, I was reminded of my original thoughts. Since I can read others’ thoughts, and In-woo knows this fact.

I asked In-woo what he thought about me having this ability. In-woo grimaced and said it’s fine for novel protagonists but would be terrible to think about in reality.

He said it reminded him of Radel, that is, me.

Well, I suppose so…

What expectations did I even have?

***

June 23rd, Rainy ☂

Since I’ve been feeling down these past few days, In-woo directly asked what was wrong. Though I tried not to answer, In-woo persistently asked, so I finally told him about how he skipped the morning kiss a few days ago.

In-woo’s reaction was incredulous. And he said he didn’t remember because he was drunk with sleep.

Well, In-woo has always been weak in the mornings…

Though Kim In-woo told me to have confidence, asking why I was suddenly getting insecure over strange things…

I need to be more aware of my position.

The fact that I am a sinner to In-woo, that I am deceiving him, and that if by chance the truth is revealed to him, I must beg for his mercy.

***

August 2nd, Clear ☀

The day before yesterday, we were invited to Seo Jae-hyun’s house and went to hang out.

It’s peak vacation season in Korea and Seo Jae-hyun also got his vacation. Though Seo Jae-hyun had thought about going abroad, he chose to stay quietly in Korea due to some work in between. Since we were also staying home instead of going out during the busy vacation season, we decided to meet briefly to get into the vacation mood.

After I told him that In-woo and I were dating, Seo Jae-hyun’s attitude toward In-woo changed to be clean-cut. It was a neat giving up. Though I had viewed him with some prejudice before, Seo Jae-hyun being a good friend to In-woo was a decent human. Well, he may be disqualified as a lover but not disqualified as a friend.

Actually, it seems In-woo often consults with Seo Jae-hyun about relationship matters. After learning that, I stopped reading Seo Jae-hyun’s mind. I didn’t want to steal and hear words that In-woo wasn’t telling me directly.

***

October 7th, Clear ☀

For a while now, Raseti has been contacting me frantically. It seems Ezel is acting somewhat suspicious. If Ezel is planning something, Raseti can’t stop them alone. I had to go and resolve it myself.

I need to return at some point but it’s really annoying. Though I know it’s premature to kill Ezel since no suitable clone has emerged, I just wanted to kill them at once. If just one more royal family member were alive, there wouldn’t be such annoying matters. (What a ridiculous thing to say.)

Since I couldn’t think of a proper excuse, I had no choice but to leave behind an android in the same form as <Lee Sun-ho> to replace me. I made it clear to the android not to have s*x under any circumstances, but I think In-woo will find it strange.

Next time, I should prepare some grounds like overseas business trips in advance so I can be absent without raising suspicion.

Still, since the movie he filmed before has been released and the response is good, In-woo has been getting gradually busier these days, so maybe he’ll be fine without me as he moves around busily.

Though it bothers me that I can’t be there to support him by his side just when In-woo is starting to do well…

Yes, the recently released movie. Both that movie and Kim In-woo were on an upward trend lately.

In-woo’s character in the movie was a role that consistently followed the protagonist throughout. Opposite to the deadly serious protagonist, he had a light and energetic atmosphere that helped ventilate the overall heavy mood of the movie. However, in the middle of the movie, In-woo’s character meets a tragic death that draws out the protagonist’s anger.

Though it’s f*cking awful that In-woo dies, it was a good character for leaving an impression on people. Though his appearance was brief, he had quite a lot of scenes, and since he had to stick close to the protagonist, he got caught in many scenes.

Above all, Kim In-woo was too pretty in the movie.

After all, he’s In-woo who even Ezel, who was endlessly frivolous below the waist but diligently judged faces, declared pretty. (It’s really not even funny.)

The screen image of In-woo moving his lips with a pale face and forcing a smile while delivering his last words to the protagonist was talked about everywhere. Some said the director’s personal preference made what should have been a tragic scene come out too pretty, but what can you do when the kid is just naturally too pretty?

His acting also received good reviews, and they say new scripts are already coming in. It’s an unbeatable start as a rookie actor. Since I’m here, there won’t be any unnecessary scandals either, so In-woo’s success is practically guaranteed now.

So, I should pray that In-woo will be fine even if I’m a bit negligent because he’s busy.

***

October 24th, Cloudy ☁

Though it was just a brief visit, there were too many annoying matters. I wanted to kill all those bastards spouting utterly useless words. I don’t know how I endured for a thousand years. Though it was comfortable being able to walk around in my original size for the first time in a while, it was too shabby to even call an advantage compared to life with In-woo.

Since it seemed difficult to be absent often, I moved diligently while suppressing the urge to quit everything. Raseti sarcastically mocked that love must be good. I thought about giving them appropriate punishment but held back considering Raseti’s contributions.

As soon as I returned after finishing the headache-inducing matters, I hugged Kim In-woo. I missed In-woo’s scent and body temperature so much that I couldn’t hold back even knowing it would look strange.

When I hugged him tightly, In-woo who had been stammering in confusion soon started crying loudly and hitting me. Of course, I was so surprised I nearly fell backward.

It seems In-woo was quite anxious because I had been keeping my distance and acting awkwardly for over two weeks. I’m glad nothing happened, as I was planning to destroy the android and completely erase its data if it had made contact.

On the other hand, In-woo’s crying face made my heart ache. When I asked if he still couldn’t do without me, he hit me saying <What kind of nonsense is that>. Then after mulling over my words, he said it’s different from before.

<I still can’t forget what happened then. I probably never will for my whole life. But I’m not blindly afraid like back then. It’s just in the past now. When I say I need you, it’s literally just because I like and love you. I can’t even imagine being without you now. You’re even in my future retirement plans, how could you just disappear from here. We have to live together forever.>

Though In-woo was actually trembling, contrary to his words about it being just in the past, I pretended not to notice. Each and every word of Kim In-woo was so precious that I keep savoring this moment as I write it down exactly.