CHAPTER 6 – Time of Atonement (Part 7)

Lillian barely managed to keep herself from collapsing. She’d cl*maxed long ago, long after he’d shoved her against the door and shook her. Her entire body had become so sensitive that even the slightest touch felt like an electric shock.

Every time her n*pples brushed against the creaking door, every time Cedric’s playful touch to her cl*t drove her crazy.

The footsteps of guards in the corridor, this cat-and-mouse game, were all revealing exactly what they were doing on the other side of the door.

Below, the dam had already burst, and tears of joy flowed freely.

Despite knowing it was wrong, she felt ashamed of herself for becoming more aroused in this situation; the extreme pl*asure and shame were blurring her reality.

While Lillian reached her cl*max, Cedric ej*culated inside her several times. And yet, his p*nis was still hard, never once losing its erect*on.

“Now I understand what you were thinking.”

“Huugh.”

After pulling out for a moment, Cedric picked her up and thrust into her again. The lightness with which he lifted and lowered her like a doll made her head spin.

“It’s unbearable, so you just had fun and then left.”

“Ah!”

“That’s why you left. Without a word.”

Cedric, who had somehow reached the bed, sat down and pulled Lillian onto his lap like a lightweight doll. They were facing the same place.

The mirror.

Reflected in the vanity mirror, their appearance was incredibly lascivious. Lillian’s usually neat hair was disheveled,  and the two of them stared at each other in the mirror, n*ked and unclothed…….

Cedric, holding her waist and spreading her legs wide, whispered into her ear.

“I’m disappointed. I thought you were someone with a strong sense of responsibility… but you were just a coward, Lillian.”

The consequence of their recklessness at the door remained clearly evident between her legs.

“I don’t like it, please, this position is too embarrassing…”

While complaining, Lillian closed her tightly shut eyes.

“Open your eyes.”

Despite Cedric’s continued urging, she couldn’t bring herself to look at her own intimate area. The fleeting glimpse was too messy. She couldn’t possibly… soberly…

“Ah!”

Suddenly, a stinging sensation spread throughout her intimate area.

“Open your eyes.”

Startled, Lillian stared at Cedric’s hand that had slapped her private part. Although it didn’t hurt much, she was shocked that Cedric had done this to her, especially since it was such a sensitive area that a mere touch was irritating.

As if to tease her, another blow landed lightly there.

“Ah!”

As Lillian desperately tried to hold back her breath, a thick white substance gushed out from her intimate area. After the first flow of s*men, there seemed to be no end to it.

As she strained to hold back, Cedric grabbed her cheeks and held them shamefully apart, revealing the gaping hole that was repeatedly opening and closing like a gasping breath.

“Do you see what you’ve taken?”

Along the inflamed intimate area and perineum, the white s*men continued to trickle down.

“My purity is inside you, Lillian. Everything I had… you took it all away.”

Even as he spoke as if he blamed her, Cedric stared with loving eyes at the tender flesh he had ravaged.

Each time his long, thick fingers stroked there, the pale s*men with the scent of past innocence flowed down.

It was dizzying. Even as she watched it all in the mirror, Lillian couldn’t quite believe what she was doing and who she was doing it with.

As if to bring her back to reality, Cedric pressed a kiss along the nape of her neck. She closed her eyes against the vague sensation, and then felt another dull ache from the sore area below.

“Ah!”

Lillian was held captive with her jaw clenched. The way he manipulated her like a puppet in his grasp felt so unfamiliar.

“Look closely.”

“Ugh…”

The extremely lewd affair resumed relentlessly.

***

Between Lillian’s spread thighs on the damp bed, Cedric’s firm n*ked leg entwined.

“… Are you not leaving?”

“I’m not leaving.”

“You’re really going to sleep here?”

Instead of answering, Cedric lowered his lips to the exposed neck of the woman lying beneath him.

He knew what Lillian was worrying about. And sure enough, as she subtly pushed him away, his hand that had been holding her slender waist involuntarily tightened.

“The maids will come tomorrow morning…”

There was no need to wait until ‘tomorrow.’ The sun would rise in a few hours. The wax candles had already melted, and with the lady of the manor serving a huge breakfast, everyone would be out in search of Cedric’s whereabouts.

The man who will return to the capital, bury his father, and become Lord of the Duchy of Edelgard.

And if the Lord and Lady of the manor found him coming out of the unmarried goddess’s bedroom….

“You’re going to cause people to misunderstand for sure.”

“What misunderstanding?”

A low voice, carrying the chill of early dawn, rang above her head.

“The misconception that me and you have been lying here all night like dogs?”

“…….”

“That’s not a misunderstanding, it’s the truth.”

Lilian, despite repeatedly telling herself that this couldn’t go on, couldn’t bring herself to drive him away. The words telling him to leave her bedroom just wouldn’t come out.

His arm, wrapped around her like a chain. The broad chest that hugged her like it would never let go. The rapid heartbeat against her back…….

The heat of his body against hers made Lillian’s eyes water.

She’d rather melt into him than push him away. If tonight with him, which felt like a fantasy, was the end, Lilian prayed that today would be the last day of her life.

If she was going to hell for loving a man unsuitable for her, it would be bearable. If only she could cherish this moment forever.

Her spine shuddered, wondering why loving this man was so agonizing.

“The story from the fairy tale read by the priest was right.”

Feeling lips brushing against her nape, Lillian quietly closed her eyes.

“I should have let go of my greed, but I didn’t, and now I’m being punished for it.”

Chasing after desires only intensifies the thirst. Loving this man was as painful as breathing underwater for a gill-less beast, even though she knew it was obvious…….

“Lessons from fairy tales are nothing more than a means to frighten children, Lillian.”

“Hmm….”

“First, fairy tales are just a method for the ruling class to control the masses. Second, you are no longer a child.”

“Ah!”

Lillian desperately blocked the hand that was exploring between her legs. Though she bent her knees and hunched her body, he stubbornly persisted.

She wished someone would catch sight of them like this.

She hoped someone would discover the two of them, n*ked and tangled together like copulating snakes. Even if it meant being exposed to the world in that way, she wanted it.

Why does love make people so miserable and desperate?

Lillian wanted to blame this man. She had tried so hard to shake him off countless times, but Cedric unintentionally thwarted her at every turn. His decisions were entirely incomprehensible.

“Stop, please…”

Lillian managed to tear his lips away that were once again heading south.

“Why did you do that? Your priestly ordination is not far away, why on earth would you suddenly retire from the knighthood…”

“Why?”

He laughed as if he’d heard something outrageous.

“How can I be ordained as a priest? Does that make any sense?”

“Surely….”

‘Was it really because of the engagement?’ 

Her stiff lips quivered in bewilderment.

As if outright denying such thoughts, a determined voice mixed with resolve gently comforted her shattered heart.

“It’s something I’ve decided to do from the moment you disappeared from my sight. Lillian.”

‘Could he have had s*x with me with that level of resolve?’ 

Cedric had a hunch that the moment this woman, not the goddess, filled his mind all day long, his chances of becoming a priest were doomed.

He didn’t expect to lose his innocence so quickly.

“I had already given up on the priesthood. Without any regrets.”

“Did you really resign from the knighthood because of me?”

“Of course, because of you.”

Cedric gently brushed the stiff lips of the bewildered woman. When he pulled away, her face was tinged with regret.

“What have we done?”

“…”

“You took my innocence, Lillian.”

With a stern gaze, as if reminding her to remember, he reviewed the facts of their relationship.

“I can no longer pretend to be a faithful celibate and wield a sword in the Holy Court.”

Lillian’s cheeks heated up of their own accord. It was certainly ridiculous to be having this conversation, n*ked in bed, asking him why he’d left the priesthood.

She had this man’s most precious possession, and it had never been more apparent than now.

“At night, I share a bed with you, and during the day, I receive ordination from the bishop. Does that seem like a proper gentleman to you?”

“….”