Male Lead, Please Dump Me Three Times - Chapter 46
“Sister, did you really stay up for two whole days and just come back?”
I finished showering at the speed of light for the perfect crime. And just as I unpacked and was about to lie down on the bed.
As expected, an unwelcome guest appeared.
“I told you in advance. But why do you look like that?”
Dermian’s dark circles reached down to his jaw, and his emerald eyes, similar to mine, were bloodshot.
It really seemed like he had lost sleep over worrying about me, just as Ellie said.
“Ha…!”
Dermian let out a disbelieving laugh.
“Ah~ So you ended up like this because you were worried about me? I heard it from Ellie. She said you were worried?”
“Worried, my foot! I was only worried that our parents might come back early! Then I’d be in trouble alone.”
Dermian spoke in a very annoyed tone. Then he walked to the table and irritably pulled out a chair.
“I clearly told you to keep it to yourself, didn’t I? But you went running off to Ellie and blabbered everything?”
Dermian said, resting his chin on his hands while sitting at the table.
“What was I supposed to do? You should have at least contacted me. You really don’t know how scary the world is…… Ugh, let’s not talk about it.”
I lifted my body that was leaning against the bed and said to Dermian.
“Hey, I have a problem.”
“Solve it yourself. Sharing a problem means two people have a problem now.”
I lightly ignored Dermian’s words and continued to ask.
“You said you’ve been in a relationship before, right?”
“Sister, please.”
Dermian was holding his head with both hands, looking tormented.
Although I felt a bit sorry for him, solving my problem was the priority.
I went down from the bed and took a seat across Dermian at the table.
“Did you seriously date them? Tell me more about it.”
I tapped the table a couple of times, urging Dermian to answer.
“Of course. Isn’t that obvious? Why would you even ask?”
“Not necessarily. You could be a bit of a jerk for all I know.”
I don’t think my own flesh and blood could be that low but…
You can know someone like the back of your hand but still not know their heart, right?
You have to consider all possibilities.
Just look at Delian…
Who would have known about Killian?
“I don’t play with people’s feelings. Why date someone I don’t like? That’s just a waste of time.”
Dermian said, his eyebrows drooping heavily.
He looked quite incredulous.
Hmm. In that case……
“When do you know for sure?”
“Know what?”
“That you like them. Not ‘Do I like this person?’ but ‘I like this person!’”
Dermian just blinked and then furrowed his brow.
“If you’re confused to that extent, doesn’t it mean you don’t like them?”
“Why?”
“Sister. Are you the question mark killer1someone who asks too many questions?”
“No. I’m just curious. It’s possible to be confused. Human emotions are not so straightforward……”
“……”
Dermian closed his eyes and pressed his temples slowly. His expression was still furrowed.
But I was more serious than anyone at that moment.
Since I had no experience in dating, I desperately needed someone’s advice.
“Actually, the situation is a bit complicated. So it’s not just ‘I think I like this person,’ but ‘I really like this person a lot!’ kind of certainty that I need.”
I explained my situation in detail.
Then Dermian’s furrowed expression began to relax slightly.
And then he seemed deep in thought.
“Hmm…”
Seeing my chance, I continued to pour out my concerns.
“My friend says when they see that person struggling, they feel sorry and sympathetic.”
“Uh-huh.”
“But they’re confused if it’s just simple sympathy or something more.”
Upon hearing my words, Dermian suddenly became serious again.
It seemed he finally grasped the depth of my concern.
“That sounds quite complicated… How about trying some physical contact?”
“Physical contact? Like what?”
Truth be told, Ray and I had done almost everything…
But I couldn’t go into details about that.
After all, I had framed it as my friend’s story.
“Physical contact is physical contact. Like holding hands. Or trying something else.”
“What else? Do you have any good ideas?”
At my question, Dermian shook his head sideways and let out a light sigh.
“Sister. We’ve received enough sex education at the academy, haven’t we?”
Dermian asked me one by one in a calm voice, like a teacher.
“Of course! I was even a scholarship student based on my grades.”
I agreed with Dermian’s words and nodded with my chin propped up.
“Right. Since it’s a romance learned from text, I’ll give you that. So, what physical contact could there be between men and women? If not hands, there are lips.”
“Lips…?”
Ray’s lips…
They were warm, soft, and tender…
Moist too…
As I recalled that sensation, my whole body tingled for a moment.
“There’s more, but if you just want to confirm your feelings, let’s leave it at that.”
“Okay.”
“……”
“W-Who said it’s about me?! It was about my friend.”
“Right. Another story about that sister’s friend. Sorry. Thought it was about you.”
Dermian gave a languid smile and then apologized with rounded eyes.
I was relieved that Dermian seemed to believe my lie.
“Good. As long as you understand.”
“But sister.”
“Huh?”
“From what I’ve seen, it’s not just about physical contact. If you don’t like them, even skin touching would be unpleasant, right? It would feel bad.”
Unpleasant…
Since it’s almost like having no experience with the opposite sex, I had to judge based on the data I’ve accumulated so far.
Suddenly, Killian’s face came to mind.
Behind the column on the second floor of the banquet hall. When Killian came close to me.
And when his nose brushed against my cheek in the carriage.
I really got goosebumps all over then…
That scene vividly came back to me, and I involuntarily frowned.
Soon after, I pushed away Killian’s floating image in my head and thought of Ray.
What about Ray…?
I recalled every moment Ray’s skin touched mine.
There wasn’t a single time Ray’s touch felt unpleasant.
Even when we were still a bit awkward with each other. Even then, he often held my hand or kissed my hand back.
But there was none of the discomfort I felt with Killian.
During my stay at Ray’s mansion, on the contrary, every time our skin touched, I often felt a warm and fuzzy feeling.
It felt like my body would melt into that warmth.
Especially in bed at that time…
I recalled an unforgettable night with Ray.
The earnest gaze looking up at me as he sat me on top of him…
The soft lips breathing heavy sighs and kissing me gently…
The broad hands softly stroking my back and pulling me in tightly…
Definitely. Not once did I feel uncomfortable.
Rather, I found myself clinging to him, unknowingly entrapped by the thrilling sensation.
I had completely forgotten that I was facing Dermian since I was recalling the memories of that day.
“……If you’re confused, try it one more time. Then it’ll become clearer.”
“One… more time?”
“Yes. But it has to be with mutual consent. Otherwise, it’s a crime.”
“Right. That seems better. I think I’ll be able to realize it clearly.”
“Just don’t be too persistent or make excessive demands.”
“Why?”
“Because if you realize you don’t actually like them, it would be wrong to do that to the other person. It’s not like you’re playing with people.”
That’s right.
I shouldn’t make unreasonable demands on the other person just to confirm my feelings.
“Ah, that makes sense. Seek consent…, and don’t make excessive demands.”
I engraved Dermian’s advice into my mind, letter by letter.
“Phew. Anyway. Are we done with questions? Can I go now?”
Dermian let out a deep sigh and stood up.
I nodded and replied,
“Yeah…. Thank you. Take care.”
I never thought he’d be of any help in my lifetime.
Dermian, turns out you’re quite useful.
* * *
If my feelings for Ray aren’t just pure sympathy…
What if I really do like Ray…
What then?
“Can I be honest……?”
-Do you like me?
-Yes. I like you.
It’s clear that Ray has positive feelings for me.
But.
What if it was just the atmosphere that made him say that?
But his actions and eyes seemed sincere……
“Now that I think about it, I remember what I told Delian back then.”
I recalled a conversation I had with Delian once.
-Daisy. I think that person really likes me.
-Why……?
-You can just tell from their eyes. You can’t lie with your eyes, right?
-Eyes can lie too.
I confidently declared to Delian that even a person’s eyes can deceive.
Of course, I trust Ray.
I know very well he’s not the kind of person to play with others’ feelings.
It just made me understand what Delian must have felt looking at Killian.
Delian was just unlucky to get involved with someone like Killian. He must have trusted everything about him because he liked him.
“Let’s not think about Delian and Ray’s relationship anymore.”
That was the biggest reason I had been ignoring Ray until now.
But now, I wanted to bury their issues.
Accepting his feelings for me is a separate matter.
I shouldn’t associate Ray with Delian anymore.
Ray has already conveyed his feelings to me.
Forcing him and Delian together in this situation… would be completely disregarding and ignoring his feelings.
And more than anything, I want to be true to my own feelings now.
“Alright. Let’s try one more time.”
* * *
As I sorted through my complicated thoughts, time flew by quickly.
And before I knew it, it was Wednesday, the day I had promised to meet Killian.
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