Male Lead, Please Dump Me Three Times - Chapter 50

Swallowing dryly with nervousness.

My breathing started to feel irregular.

Ray, sitting opposite me, looked the same as always.

‘Good……. It seems right that I like him. Just looking at Ray makes me smile.’

But…….

What if this is just a normal reaction to a handsome man?

If my fluttering heart is merely because of his looks…

If I’m attracted to Ray’s appearance, then I shouldn’t get any closer.

-‘I don’t know what’s in your heart.’
-‘What if I approach you out of my own desire and you run away again like before.’
-‘So, I’ll wait.’

These were the words Ray had comforted me with when I felt disappointed.

The look in Ray’s eyes and his voice as he said those words vividly came back to me.

Ray, who is always considerate towards me, shouldn’t be hurt by me.

What have I done to him so far?

Without any feelings… like there’s no tree that won’t fall after being hit ten times, just kept hitting on him.

Instigating his relationship with Delian.

Though it started with good intentions…

“Daisy. Is something wrong? Do you have concerns…”

Ray’s deep voice broke through my thoughts, concern evident in his tone.

“Ah……. Was it that obvious?”

“What’s wrong?”

“That is……, you remember I said I had something to tell you?”

“Yes, of course.”

“And that it might be a request?”

Ray nodded at my words.

“So…… then, Ray.”

“Yes.”

“My hand… could you hold it just once?”

At my words, a slight wrinkle formed on Ray’s brow as he looked at me worriedly.

Without hesitation, Ray stood up and approached me, kneeling on one knee as he looked at me.

His hand gently wrapped around mine.

I could feel calluses on his large and firm hand.

And it was warm.

The sound of my heart pounding rapidly echoed in my ears again.

‘But the heart… is supposed to beat anyway.’

Suddenly, I remembered holding hands with others.

It felt nice holding hands with Delian too. The same with Ian.

But it felt different this time.

Ray gently rubbed the hand he held in his.

I liked his ticklish touch.

Whenever my skin touched Ray’s, a fuzzy feeling, accompanied by tingling in my fingers and toes, would occur.

But if it’s just the feeling of touching someone of the opposite sex…

Suddenly, I remembered a conversation with Dermian.

-Sister. If James hurt his leg enough to walk, would you still give him a princess carry?
-Are you crazy? Gross.

I cursed without much thought.

Just imagining touching James made every hair on my body stand on end.

‘So it’s not just because of touching someone of the opposite sex that this feeling arises…’

I sighed deeply inside.

“Daisy. Is something wrong?”

Ray asked in a soft and kind voice.

I lifted my head that had fallen towards the ground and looked at Ray as I spoke.

“No, it’s nothing for Ray to worry about…”

“Then why do you look so unwell?”

“It’s just some complicated stuff……”

“Is it something hard for you to tell me?”

I wanted to tell him.

I wanted to open up and have a conversation with him.

But the fact that I’m confused about my feelings…

Might hurt him.

What if these feelings really stem from sympathy? Then what?

Instead of answering, I moved the hand that Ray was holding.

I covered his hand with mine and gently caressed it with my fingers.

Ray’s skin was smooth and soft.

‘I like it… It’s warm and nice. But is it just because his skin is nice and warm…?’

Maybe because it was uncharacteristic of me, Ray’s eyebrows were slightly furrowed.

It was unclear whether he was worried or perplexed.

But he didn’t press me further.

It seemed like Ray was waiting for me to speak first.

“Um… Ray.”

“Yeah.”

I like it when Ray acts like he’ll listen to anything when I hesitate like this.

I also like how he silently looks at me, waiting for my response.

“Can… Can you hug me just once?”

Ray looked at me with a deep gaze.  

He took in my eyes, nose, and mouth, examining each feature. Worry was evident in his red eyes.

Ray stood up. Then, he bent down and enveloped me in his embrace.

I closed my eyes.

It felt like every joint in my body was melting again.

It was warm, pleasant, and thrilling.

I wanted to fall asleep in his arms, just like this.

Though the hairs on my body stood on end, it wasn’t from discomfort.

It was a sensation accompanied by a fluttering and secure feeling.

I buried myself deeper into his embrace. Suddenly, Ray’s body twitched.

But he didn’t push me away.

Without saying a word, he gently stroked the back of my head and said,

“Daisy.”

“Yeah.”

“Who’s been bothering you?”

His voice echoed in my ear. A small laugh escaped through my teeth.

Ray’s words seemed to consider Delian and Killian for some reason.

Even though those two were the last things on my mind.

Still resting my head on his broad shoulder, I rubbed my face against him and said,

“That’s not it.”

“……”

“Can I… be honest?”

“Of course.”

Ray’s gentle voice echoed in my ear. Once again, a corner of my heart started to feel warm and fuzzy.

“You might find it unpleasant.”

“That won’t happen.”

He soon gently stroked down my back.  

It felt as if I was riding on clouds, and I unwittingly closed my eyes.

“Can we… kiss just one more time?”

“……”

Suddenly, the hand that was stroking my back stopped.

Then he let me go from his embrace. I looked up at Ray slightly.

His gaze was sharp as he looked at me, yet his red eyes were trembling slightly.

As expected.

Does it make him feel bad…?

But I didn’t want to give up just like that.

This past week had been too long.

Right here, right now,

I wanted to be sure of my feelings.

The last night I spent at Ray’s mansion,

I wanted to know if the feelings I had while kissing him were just because of the atmosphere, or if I really had romantic feelings for him.

“It seems like it would be okay for just a moment…”

“No.”

But contrary to my expectations, Ray’s voice was firm. It even felt a bit cold.

I’m asking for a kiss out of the blue.

I fully understood why he pushed me away.

But still, I couldn’t say I was completely unaffected by Ray’s cold demeanor.

“Why…?”

“We’re not anything yet.”

Ray looked away as he trailed off his words.

“We weren’t anything last time either… but we did.”

“Daisy. That day, I’m sorry…”

“No. It’s not something for Ray to apologize for. I agreed too.”

I wasn’t blaming Ray for that day.

That day, Ray only kissed me after getting my consent.

If I had rejected him, he wouldn’t have come any closer.

“Did that day upset you a lot? So…”

I shook my head sideways. Then I met Ray’s eyes and said,

“That’s not it. I wasn’t upset at all. You don’t have to worry about that, Ray.”

“Then… why.”

If Ray would refuse, I had no intention of forcing him.

As Dermian said… because I wanted to maintain respect for the other person.

“So… what about a peck?”

“……”

“Can’t we even do a peck…?”

“No.”

Ray’s voice remained firm. But his eyes were shaking.

“Just very briefly and then we’ll stop…”

“Daisy.”

I moved a little closer to Ray. Then I carefully wrapped my hands around his neck and said,

My fingertips brushed against his soft hair. Instinctively, I gently stroked his hair.

“If you dislike it, push me away, Ray.”

Vibrations appeared in Ray’s red eyes, holding me.

I closed my eyes and moved closer to him.

‘Chuk.’

Our lips briefly overlapped, then separated with a sound.

It was soft and tender.

Ray ultimately did not push me away.

Slightly moving back, I met his gaze again.

The separation of our lips left me longing.

His red eyes were lazily relaxed.

Seeing Ray like that made somewhere within me tingle again.

At the same time, a strong desire surged within me.

I wished Ray would hug me tighter,

Kiss me again like that day,

To continue being with him like this… not wanting to be apart from him.

At that moment, I was certain,

That night,

The feelings I experienced while our tongues intertwined weren’t just because of the atmosphere,

‘I like him.’

Ray’s languidly relaxed eyes were strangely captivating.  

Even that aspect of him was adorable and cute.  

Facing him, a pleasant smile naturally formed on my face.  

I slowly took in every detail of Ray’s appearance and said,  

“Ray.”  

“…….”  

“Can I… do it one more time?”