Male Lead, Please Dump Me Three Times - Chapter 52

It’s strange.

“The world is pink……”

Even though it’s clearly a very dark blue night sky.

At a glance, it seemed dyed with pink, looking almost purple.

My heart, filled to the brim upon meeting Ray, didn’t know how to calm down even after a while.

“To think… such a good thing existed… and everyone but me was enjoying it…?”

Mean people.

Why didn’t anyone tell me…!

The smile on my lips didn’t know how to fade.

My cheeks kept rising uncontrollably.

-I’ll come to pick you up tomorrow.

“Hehehe… I’ll see him tomorrow too.”

A cool breeze blew in the garden.

The leaves fluttered in the wind, rustling.

I was wrapped in a light shawl, capturing the night sky as the sun set in my eyes.

Tonight, the stars seemed to twinkle even more.

The densely packed sky was even home to a milky way crossing between.

‘Ray must have arrived by now?’

I thought, sipping on warm chamomile tea.

Unknowingly, I was humming a tune.

Ray’s face flashed across the dark night sky like an afterimage.

That moment.

A question suddenly popped into my mind.

I’m sure I like Ray.

But…

Since when?

Well.

Whenever it was, whatever the reason was.

It doesn’t really matter…

But I was curious.

Maybe… I’ve had romantic feelings for Ray for a very long time?

“So what. Who cares.”

-So. I’ll wait.

Tomorrow, I plan to confess my feelings to Ray.

Today was a bit off.

Truthfully, I wanted to tell him today…

But it felt awkward to say I liked him while gasping for breath on his thigh.

This time.

Facing Ray. I wanted to convey my feelings seriously.

“Hahaha. The weather is really nice. The wind is just right too.”

Then, suddenly, I heard the sound of cautious footsteps behind me.

“It’s finally happened… Sister has completely lost it…”

It was Dermian’s voice.

I slightly twisted my body to look at Dermian.

“Dermian? My cute little brother, did you come out for some air?”

“……?”

For some reason, Dermian had a look of shock and horror on his face.

“Thank you. It’s all thanks to you. You precious and adorable thing.”

“Really… has she finally gone mad… uh, we need a doctor…”

“Hehehe… Right. Maybe I’m truly mad about someone.”

Today, whatever Dermian said didn’t reach my ears at all.

But my brother has never been as admirable as he was today.

However, there was just one thing that annoyed me.

“But, you know. You’ve been enjoying this all by yourself, haven’t you? You wicked thing.”

“……”

“But today, I’ll forgive you. Today was a day of great realization.”

I turned my back again to look up at the night sky.

It’s a pity.

Maybe during our academy days, those innocent times, Ray and I could have made more memories together.

A campus love story…

Uh…, wait a minute.

Now that I think about it… Ray had rejected me twice?

We agreed to bury that story, but now that it’s come to this, I couldn’t help but be curious.

‘Did he regret rejecting me…? Or did he gradually fall for me at some point?’

They say there’s no tree that won’t fall after ten chops…, did that really work?

Actually, I really hated that saying.

It sounded like forcing one’s feelings without considering the other person’s emotions.

“Hmm…”

But if I ask about that time…

I would have to tell him why I confessed to him and why I ran away from him on graduation day…

Then I shouldn’t ask.

Why does the past matter?

It’s important that our feelings for each other are mutual now.

“Then, then.”

I nodded my head lightly, reassuring myself.

“I should go to bed early tonight.”

I can’t confess with a haggard face.

* * *

I finished showering early and laid down on the cozy blanket.

I loved the warmth of the blanket so much that I pulled it up to my shoulders and melted into its warmth.

‘Knock knock.’

“Yes, come in.”

The one who opened the door and came in was none other than Ellie.

“Ellie, I’m going to bed early today!”

“Yes……”

Ellie looked somewhat listless. There was worry evident on her face.

“Ellie, is something wrong?”

“No. It’s not that……”

Ellie approached me with somewhat anxious steps.

In Ellie’s hand was a silver tray.

Ellie placed the silver tray on the bedside table.

On the tray were a packet of medicine, a glass of water, and a thermometer.

“But I’m not sick anywhere?”

“Yes……”

Ellie’s voice was low. Her trembling hand soon covered my forehead.

“It doesn’t seem like you have a fever……”

Worry still shone in Ellie’s eyes.

“Just a moment, miss.”

Ellie spoke in a soft voice and then took out the thermometer from the table.

“No, I don’t have a fever……”

Ellie carefully inserted the thermometer through the gap in my slightly parted lips.

Unsure of what was happening, I involuntarily stayed silent.

After a while, Ellie checked the thermometer and let out a light sigh.

“Ellie, why are you suddenly checking for fever?”

“Ah…… Master Dermian asked me to check if you had a fever… He was worried you might be sick.”

Oh no.

I’ve unintentionally caused Dermian to worry.

It seems he was concerned whether I might catch a cold from being out in the night air.

“So that’s it. Dermian has a surprisingly tender side.”

“Yes…?”

“He’s deeper than I thought.”

For some reason, Ellie had the same expression as Dermian, whom I saw in the garden a little while ago.

“Then, please rest, miss…”

“Okay! Ellie, you go rest too! Oh, by the way, I’m going out tomorrow. I think I’ll be back around dinner time.”

“Yes…”

I said with a smile to Ellie as she left my bedside.

“Ellie. You look even prettier today. Not that you weren’t already.”

“Yes…?”

“Your chocolate-brown hair is beautiful…, and the freckles on your cheeks are cute.”

“Ah… Thank you, miss…”

Ellie seemed a bit embarrassed by my compliment, making an awkward expression.

“Right! Go on then. You need to rest too, Ellie. Don’t worry about me, I’ll go to sleep early tonight.”

Ellie’s gaze was towards the floor.

It turns out Ellie is more shy than I thought.

“Yes… Have a good night, miss…”

It seems like everyone in our house is worrying about me today.

An hour had passed since I lay in bed.

Maybe because of my excited heart, I couldn’t easily fall asleep.

“Hmm… Maybe I should play a bit before sleeping…”

I started looking around for something to pass the time with my eyes moving around.

That’s when I noticed the silver tray Ellie had left behind.

No.

To be precise, it was the purple book sprawled beneath the nightstand where the silver tray was placed that caught my eye.

I opened the purple book while lying down.

It still had no writing in it.

-There must be a reason why the book has come into your hands.
– If there’s another way to see the content, could you tell me?
– Well, if it’s not visible to the owner’s eyes……. I don’t have a specific method either. It would be best if you keep that book with you at all times.
– Carry it around all the time? This book?
-Yes. It might be a matter of time… but it seems like a good idea.

Suddenly, a conversation I had with the old woman in Livro came to mind.

She spoke as if she was dealing with some sort of magic book…

In the end, nothing is visible.

“Hmph. I’ll use this as my diary from now on.”

I picked up the purple book and trotted over to the table.

Then I pulled out a quill pen and started twirling it in the air, drawing circles.

I opened the second page and recorded today’s events.

‘Dermian showed me how to have physical contact with Ray. 

All this time, the pity I felt for him was because I liked him. 

Every moment our skin touched was thrilling. 

When our eyes met, my heart felt like it was going to burst.’

The empty page began to fill with cursive writing along with a scratching sound.

Reviewing the day while writing in the diary made my heart flutter again.

Unknowingly, a languid smile formed on my lips.

And then I wrote down the last line.

‘I wish tomorrow would come soon. I want to see Ray quickly.’

I carefully closed the purple book. Then I headed back to bed.

The diary was placed back in its original spot beneath the nightstand.

And I fell asleep with a fluffy feeling.

* * *

The next morning.

As I opened the diary again to jot down today’s weather, I couldn’t help but be surprised.

Goosebumps formed on my tender skin.

Someone had written something below my diary entry.

‘Do you like it?’

It was terribly messy handwriting.