My Former Lover Didn't Die And Came Back - Chapter 51

“Mommy…….”

Blair hugged the whining child tightly.

……Is he worried about Cedric? Is the child curious? Wondering, who is this man who looks exactly like me?

What does blood relationship really mean. Blair felt strange when she thought the child was doing this unknowingly.

“Will you sleep well if mommy puts you to bed?”

“Yes.”

Blair entered the bedroom with the child. She left the bedroom door slightly open so that light from the living room could come in.

Blair, lying on the child’s bed, untied the ribbon that was fastening her front. As one breast was exposed, the child in her arms took the dry nipple in his mouth.

Suck, suck……The child’s eyes closed as he sucked on the nipple.

Then, the bedroom door burst open, and Cedric entered the room. Blair turned her head towards the door. Cedric was shocked to see her breastfeeding a three-year-old.

“……What are you doing?”

He asked with a scary expression.

“What do you mean, ‘what’? The child is sleepy,”

“Breastfeeding a child that big?”

“Waaaah, mommy…….”

Alvin burst into tears at Cedric’s shout.

“I just put him to sleep, and you woke him up! Cedric, just go out for now.”

Blair stroked the child in her arms and chased the man out. Cedric left the bedroom reluctantly, stomping his feet.

Click.

After a few minutes, Blair, having adjusted her front, appeared in front of Cedric. Cedric, with a fierce face, gestured for her to explain.

“……He’s just sucking on a dry nipple. He acts younger than his age when he’s throwing a tantrum.”

“Breastfeeding a grown child?”

“What are you talking about? He’s still so young.”

“Aren’t you spoiling him too much? He won’t have any manners. We need to hire a nanny. Someone professional in education.”

Blair’s face turned pale at those words, as though she heard him say he would take the child away immediately.

It sounded like he would take her to the capital to educate him as an heir and separate him from Blair. Additionally, it sounded like he was evaluating that her way of educating was unprofessional and inadequate.

Her blue eyes trembled aimlessly. Blair opened her trembling lips.

“……Do you know, do you know how mature he is? Do you know how much praise he gets from the villagers?”

“……Blair.”

As Blair got genuinely angry, Cedric was taken aback.

“I’m happy, actually happy, when he acts like a child like that. To that extent, Alvin is usually……!”

“Blair, calm down.”

Cedric touched her arm to calm her excitement, but she shook him off.

“Let go.”

“I think I misspoke. I’m sorry.”

Blair’s eyes widened in shock. She had heard something she believed she would never hear from a man in her lifetime.

“Your way of educating him isn’t a mess or anything like that. What I meant to say was just…….”

“…….”

Blair looked at the man with a dazed face.

“Damn it. I’m not good with words. What I wanted to say is…….”

Cedric ruffled his hair with one hand. When Cedric couldn’t continue his words, Blair spoke.

“……Are you going to take Alvin away from me?”

“Are you crazy? I wouldn’t do that.”

Cedric said emphatically.

“You just said it. That we need to hire a professional nanny.”

“What I meant is that it’s hard for you to look after him all day by yourself.”

“…….”

Blair looked up at the man in front of her with a bitter face. The Cedric she knew was not someone who easily admitted his mistakes.

Even when he had nothing, he was a man of high pride.

“……I feel so ashamed.”

Cedric was already holding her forearms gently.

“……I said things I didn’t mean out of jealousy because that guy can freely fuss over you. If anything I said hurt you, I apologize.”

Cedric said, looking straight into her eyes with a slightly reddened face. That look made Blair want to hide. Above all, Cedric’s ongoing apology was unbearably unfamiliar.

“……Did it hurt?”

“Huh?”

“When you gave birth to Alvin. I asked too late.”

“…….”

The air around them suddenly felt different. It was awkward.

“It couldn’t have been painless. Giving birth to a child.”

“……I see.”

Cedric’s gaze drifted into space. His voice seemed a bit drained.

“When did you know about the pregnancy?”

“Right after I left the capital.”

“And you didn’t think to tell me?”

“You were the last person I wanted to know.”

Blair said, furrowing her brow.

How cheeky of him to ask such questions. How could he ask if she didn’t think to tell him, after deceiving her and getting her pregnant……

As she glared at him with resentful eyes, Cedric let out an awkward sigh.

“……I understand you. You must have hated me.”

“Lies. Don’t pretend you understand.”

Haha, Cedric laughed weakly.

“That’s right. It’s a lie.”

“……”

Blair was still glaring at him.

“I don’t regret that night.”

Cedric said with a complicated face.

“I’ve always wanted to strangle my past self……”

“……”

“But I do want to give myself credit for one thing. I did well.”

At those words, the expression disappeared from Blair’s face.

“……”

……Why did I think this man had changed? As expected, people do not change easily.

Bang.

“Mommy……”

It seemed the child woke up from the sound. Alvin came out, rubbing his eyes.

“Alvin.”

Blair hugged the child, who ran into her arms. His warm body temperature melted her cold heart.

She turned her head and said,

“It’s late. Could you please leave?”

It was a gentle eviction.

“Blair, we have things to discuss,”

Cedric said urgently, but

“There’s a guest at home, and it seems the child can’t sleep. Let’s talk tomorrow. Tomorrow.”

Blair cut him off.

* * *

Whish. Black boots treaded on the sandy night road.

The night wind of Little Port, mixed with salt and sand, couldn’t be described as gentle, even as a courtesy. However, this night, Cedric Fitzgerald’s heart was as light as a feather as he headed towards his lodgings inside the ship.

……It was a good decision to stop by the land.

It was a fruitful night.

He had met Blair, and he had found out that she had given birth to and was raising his child.

Above all, his greatest harvest was that it seemed Blair had affection for the child.

……To my son, who resembles me, who carries my blood.

“……Ha,”

He rubbed his face with his calloused hands. The breath he exhaled in the cold night air dispersed into a white mist.

He couldn’t stop his lips from curling up. She’s truly a woman who’s inevitably weak to affection. It’s clear she can’t reject the child she gave birth to and raised.

Cedric’s fist trembled with hope.

A child needs a father. If Blair treasures the child terribly, she might accept him for the child’s sake.

When the child grows older, she will need a lot of money. While he might not have any thoughts now since he’s still young, when he grows up enough to be conscious of people’s eyes, he might seek out his father.

The words he left Blair a little while ago were sincere.

I really did well in impregnating her.

The child will be an excellent medium that connects him and her. A woman weak to affection will not be able to abandon her child and the child’s father.

* * *

The next morning, after taking the child to daycare and returning to the store, there was a man blocking Blair’s way. Blair lifted her head and met his eyes.

“……”

She looked at Cedric, who was guarding the door of her store, with an incredulous expression. Coming this early in the morning. Did that man even sleep?

“Could you move aside? If you stand there like that, customers won’t come.”

Cedric was dressed in a jacket with the imperial army emblem, a black cloak, and white trousers. Anyone could tell he was a high-ranking officer of Eleanor.

He followed Blair into the store without a word.

She began preparing to welcome customers. Arranging the merchandise, removing the cloths she had covered them with yesterday to keep off dust…… while Cedric stood in a corner of the store, watching every action she made. Blair sighed, wiped her hands on her apron, and approached him.

“Are you trying to ruin my business? The customers will be scared because of you,”

He reached into his jacket and pulled something out. It was a red velvet box. Blair stopped what she was saying when she saw it.

She couldn’t say she didn’t recognize that box. It was an impossible task she had given Cedric out of spite since she couldn’t be there for her parents’ last moments.

“……”

Blair hesitated for a moment before reaching for her past spitefulness. Inside was a diamond ring as blue as her eyes. She looked silently before opening her lips.

“……Recycling it? That’s insincere.”

“A child needs a father.”

One corner of her mouth raised with a sneer. That wasn’t an answer to her question. He’s suddenly talking about needing a father for the child.

“……I haven’t thought about it.”

“……”

“My answer is as I said before. Cedric, we,”

Cedric cut off her polite rejection of his proposal.

“Yes, like a broken teacup.”

And he continued. Blair alternated between looking at the ring and the man’s face.

“……You have a good memory.”

She complimented the man’s memory who used her to satisfy his physical desires.

“Do you have to raise the child without a father?”

“Can you forget everything that happened between us?”

It was the same story again.

“You and your parents did nothing wrong. Everything was Adrian’s doing.”

“Even if it was Adrian’s instigation, we were the ones who carried it out. Can we have a married life without any awkwardness? Even people with no significant issues get tired of their partners. Why choose a path clearly strewn with thorns?”

“I’ve said it once before. Blair.”

“……”

Blair clenched her fist and listened to the man’s words.

“I’ve forgotten everything about being on the slave ship and everything before and after that.”

“……”

“I have not forgotten what I did to you. And I won’t be able to forget.”

“……”

Blair bit her lip tightly.