Allen shook his head vigorously and pushed her away. He was the honorable commander of the First Knight Division who had greatly contributed to the unification of the Empire. He, who deserved to be a role model and respected by all, should not be shaken by such things.

He barely managed to stand up and take a step forward. Moving slightly away from Lea, the vivid scenes from earlier became somewhat dimmer. It seemed that physical contact with her had been the problem.

Though his thighs still trembled from the aftereffects, making his posture unstable, he felt his reason gradually returning. Only then did he begin to notice his surroundings. Lea was tilting her head, and other knights were peering over and murmuring, wondering what was happening.

At the same time, Allen became aware of his current state.

‘F*ck.’

A curse he had avoided using all his life, not wanting to resemble his brother, welled up from the depths of his heart. Something that hadn’t happened since puberty was happening to his body.

“Uh, Commander, where are you going? It’s not that way.”

Hearing quick footsteps following him from behind, Allen urgently shouted.

“Don’t come in front of me!”

“What?”

“Walk behind me.”

“But you don’t know the way.”

“When I tell you to walk behind, do so. Exactly five steps behind.”

「…?」

Even to him, it was a strange order. But he had no choice. Lea seemed perplexed too, sending him a question mark in her mind. It seemed this woman didn’t think much at all.

“Tell me from there whether to go straight, left, or right.”

“……First turn left and go straight.”

Allen turned his body in the direction she pointed, sweating profusely.

“But why are you walking with your butt sticking out?”

“Think before you speak in front of your superior.”

“Yes, sir.”

“And guide me to the bathroom first.”

“What? Oh, I see. You need to take a big one.”

“Shut your mouth and just guide me.”

“Yes, understood.”

If only it were that ‘big one.’ Unfortunately, his other ‘big one’ was throbbing and demanding release.

Getting aroused from seeing something erotic at his age…. And from images in someone else’s imagination, no less! He felt his pride being shredded. He absolutely! Did not want! Anyone to discover him in this state.

For that, he needed to get somewhere and resolve this quickly.

“This is our Northern Knight Division training ground. And the bathroom is……”

Fortunately, they arrived at their destination quickly. The training ground seemed to have been built near the border so knights could be dispatched rapidly if anything happened at the northern boundary.

Allen exhaled in relief and took steps toward the bathroom he had been so desperately seeking.

“Hello, Commander! It’s such an honor to meet you!”

But today, circumstances were not in his favor.

‘F*ck, I’m going to lose my mind.’

He bit his lip. He was about to burst from Lea’s continuous fantasies, and now a brown-haired young man, apparently from the Northern Knight Division, was approaching him with an obliviously bright expression.

“You’re the hero who saved our northern land! I’ve been waiting so eagerly for your arrival. I could barely sleep at night! I’ve only heard stories about you until now, but seeing you in person—you’re truly handsome!”

“Right.”

Allen nodded perfunctorily. It was a nice compliment, but this was not the time to deal with the man before him. If he missed his timing, he might wet his pants right here. If that happened, he was prepared to bite his tongue and die.

Just as Allen was turning to pass by the man…

“Oh my, where are my manners. I’m Tom, from the Northern Knight Division—well, now the First Division!”

Of all things, Tom was talkative.

“I’m a commoner, but I became a knight because I wanted to be like you, Commander!”

He looked at Allen with such innocent, shining eyes that Allen couldn’t bring himself to say anything harsh. If it had been mere flattery, he would have simply ignored it, but Tom was praising him from the depths of his being.

What an honest fellow. Normally, Allen would have smiled slightly and moved on, but unfortunately for Tom, he didn’t have that luxury right now.

“I see, well then—”

“But Commander, why have you been standing like that? Is something bothering you……”

“It’s nothing, excuse me.”

“The Commander urgently needs the bathroom.”

Lea, who had been quiet, chimed in.

‘This, this crazy woman.’

Allen’s eyes rolled. Lea was continuing her fantasy from earlier with a blank expression, acting like it was nothing unusual.

“Oh! I’m sorry. I didn’t realize—please go ahead, huh?”

Meanwhile, Tom bowed his head nervously but then noticed something and widened his eyes.

Only then did Allen realize his mistake.

「Vice Commander, that area.」

“Vice Commander, that area.”

Tom’s thoughts and words overlapped in Allen’s ears.

Allen had been so focused on glaring at Lea that he hadn’t paid attention to Tom. He belatedly raised his hand to cover Tom’s mouth, but…

「It’s huge.」

“You’re truly a man! I respect you!”

Tom’s mouth was faster.

“No, it’s not like that.”

“Haha, Commander, you should have worn looser pants. You must have really wanted to show it off.”

“I said it’s not like that.”

What humiliation… Allen’s earlobes turned bright red, practically burning.

Fortunately, Lea was so absorbed in her own fantasy that she didn’t properly hear their conversation, but…

‘Loose pants….’

That single phrase made her imagine a man and woman sharing one large pair of pants, rubbing their g*nitals together, causing Allen’s face to turn pale.

‘What is this now.’

Allen brought one hand to his mouth. The white liquid flowing down the couple’s legs remained in his mind like an afterimage. He thought he could hear a sticky sound from somewhere.

“Mmph.”

Finally, Allen ran to the bathroom, unable to hold it any longer. He heard someone calling him from behind but ignored it. He felt like he was about to explode.

* * *

Allen had lived without much interest in s*x. Perhaps he naturally lacked s*xual desire. He never had any particular thoughts when seeing beautiful women. Even after his coming-of-age ceremony, when Edner threw him an explicit adult novel saying, ‘You’re a grown adult now,’ he never touched it. In short, he had no curiosity about s*x-related matters. Edner had even suspected he might be impotent, given how stone-faced he remained around women.

To him, the opposite s*x was simply about making correct judgments. It had no other meaning. Men or women, they were all the same to him and not worth distinguishing between.

Yes, that had certainly been the case. And it should remain so going forward.

m*sturbating after getting excited from seeing someone else’s s*xual scene should have been impossible in his history, and yet…

‘Haah. Damn it. What is this.’

During puberty, he had experienced wet dreams and m*sturbated once, but since growing up, he had never done such things, making this extremely awkward and troublesome.

He had entered the bathroom, lowered his pants, and grabbed his center, but now that he was alone, he felt lost. Perhaps because he was completely away from Lea, his c*ck stood stiffly er*ect but refused to release anything easily. This was problematic. Just earlier, it had felt like it would spill with the slightest touch.

He felt constipated. What an uncomfortable situation. He couldn’t very well call Lea to stand outside the bathroom door while he shamefully fondled himself.

He pressed down on his p*nis, which was just large enough that his thumb and middle finger barely touched when wrapped around it. Then he tried to recall what Lea had been imagining. Though the scene had been intense, he could only remember the positions of the people, not their faces, and unconsciously superimposed Lea’s face onto the woman.

A deep sense of guilt washed over him, but once the fantasy had begun, he couldn’t stop it.

Before he knew it, he was making slapping sounds as he stroked his large member.

“Huaah, huaah.”

He felt ashamed. Even though he was alone in the bathroom, he somehow felt humiliated. Each time his hand became wet with fluid, he felt his pride being struck down. But strangely, it felt good, and pleasure came to him, which made him angry.

If Edner heard about this, he would surely laugh loudly enough to fall backward.

Allen curled his body with a flushed face. The amount was substantial. No matter how much he expelled, he remained er*ect. He wasn’t some animal in heat.

He bit his lower lip until it bled while diligently moving his hand. He didn’t know how many minutes passed like this.

* * *

When he emerged from the bathroom with a drained expression, he saw Lea waiting in front of the door.

Allen deliberately avoided her eyes. His heart pounded. Partly because of Lea’s new fantasy, but mostly because he felt guilty about his ‘private time’ in the bathroom.

‘Even in such urgency, to do that while thinking of the vice commander…’

Of course, Lea had been the original cause. But considering that he had improperly seen inside her head—even without intending to—it was partly his fault, so he had to bear the guilt and frustration alone.

“Uh, Commander, you look exactly……”

「Like someone who’s been f*cked by someone.」

Lea seemed to have some sense after all, since she kept that crazy thought to herself.