“If you’ve set foot in Helen, stay as Helen. If you want to leave that place, leave after death, but while alive, keep that place. That’s all I want.”

“You……”

“You will be buried here even after death. I have no intention of letting you go.”

That means don’t run away somewhere. All she wanted was to stay in a quiet recuperation place, but can’t she just die?

The world feels powerless. If there were at least another opportunity, it might be different, but there’s no other opportunity in sight, yet he’s telling her to endure more here. It was a crueler statement than when she received her terminal diagnosis.

“Do you know how malicious that is?”

His impassive eyes had never spoken of love. Those eyes were not holding onto and maintaining this marriage out of personal feelings.

“Can’t we just stay like this? There’s nothing difficult about staying this way.”

Lorendis calmly stroked Catherine’s waist.

“Stay like this. Everyone else lives like this too.”

“……”

“Just stay like this.”

It’s something they already discussed. It was familiar now.

She reached out and grasped his chin. Even like this, do you feel nothing?

She kissed Lorendis’s lips somewhat stiffly. Those lips were cold. More than a rough feeling, they felt thick and smooth.

Do you not know how dangerous this is? You should let go when you can, so other emotions don’t build up.

The person leaving shouldn’t leave regrets, and the person left behind shouldn’t harbor those regrets.

Lorendis kissed her more deeply.

“Mmm.”

A blunt tongue pushed in, parting her mouth. When she closed her lips in surprise, he whispered softly.

Open up.

His tongue swept across her teeth and entwined with her tongue. Between those deeply interwoven breaths, moans escaped.

He bit her plump lower lip and wove deeper. The thigh wedged between her legs firmly supported her body. Blocking any gap to slip through or path to escape, his pushing force made her head spin.

The grip supporting her collapsing body was firm. Her jaw ached dully. Saliva formed between their lips, and a sticky sensation pooled in her mouth.

As she steadied her trembling body leaning against his thigh, her head hit the wall and became disheveled. His fingers tangled through her long blonde hair.

“I can’t…… breathe. Hah!”

Her voice blurred as her breath burst out. Her stiff fingertips fidgeted and grasped his clothes.

The alcohol made her mind hazy. Like tofu being mashed, it felt soft and crumbling. That feeling was pleasant.

Lorendis hesitated as he looked down at that feeble gesture. Her fingertips were trembling palely. The blood had drained from her white-knuckled grip.

“What am I doing now……”

Lorendis murmured as if lamenting. He wasn’t blaming Catherine. His gaze avoided her.

Catherine wanted to turn that gaze back to herself. It was somewhat impulsive. As she stroked his chin and kissed him, Lorendis met her gaze again.

That gaze asked Catherine what was wrong. As she barely maintained her balance by leaning her collapsing body against him, the hand stroking below her waist explicitly embraced her body.

“Yes. Let’s live like others. That’s good in its own way.”

His eyes settled deeply.

The bedroom door closed roughly. The bedroom, vacated by the maids, was quiet. Lorendis laid Catherine on the bed and pulled down her dress. His hands undressing her were hasty. Her n*ked body was light.

“Haah……”

A sigh burst like a lamentation, touching his nape and scattering. Lorendis stroked her spine and whispered softly. Open up. Lorendis bit her lower lip and wedged his tongue in. When she scratched his shoulders with her nails, Lorendis lowered his upper body more, offering himself.

“Ugh!”

He thoroughly swept her teeth and entangled his tongue with hers. As she just gasped for breath, unable to keep up with that thirsty kiss, Lorendis cupped her nape with his hand. It felt like he would devour everything, put it in his mouth, chew, and swallow it. At that beast-like lust, Catherine whimpered and mercilessly scratched his back. As she panted for breath and trembled, Lorendis gripped her pelvis with a firm hand.

“You’re too tense.”

“Th-that’s not something I can control.”

His c*ck pushed into that path. Her inner walls gripped him tightly. Like kneading clay, her vaginal walls chewed at her flesh to accommodate his size.

Ah, that stimulation flooded in an instant. This foreign sensation was impossible to get used to. It felt like he was rubbing his entire rough body inside her. His c*ck filled her inner walls, and his fluid moistened her p*ssy. Squelch, squelch.

It’s big. Too overwhelming, I mean. Even as she panted and desperately scraped for breath, her breathing reached her chin. The flesh column swelled, and her entrance opened, aching as it swallowed him. His c*ck scraped her vaginal walls and quickly thrust up into her body.

“Hnngh! Ah, ahh, fast…… too fast.”

His body moved forward forcefully. The column of flesh filled her inner walls with wet, rhythmic sounds as his pelvis repeatedly collided against her. Heat spread through her lower abdomen, as though her entrance was being scraped by a fire-heated iron. Her inner walls tightened and convulsed, enveloping him completely.

Catherine grabbed the blanket and rubbed her cheek against it. Her lips trembled, and crying sounds scraped out from her throat. She bit her lips to stop those cries. Her lips stung.

“Don’t bite your lips.”

“Haah……”

“You have a habit of whimpering only when you’re at a disadvantage.”

Her body boiled with heat and slowly became wet with her juices. Though it felt like her body was being torn to shreds by the pain, it wasn’t entirely painful either.

Lorendis persistently pressed down on Catherine, and Catherine squirmed underneath, scratching his back.

“You’re really bad……”

“Why?”

“You’re a bit rough.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Not exactly, but it feels strange.”

His persistence was explicit even in the moment of penetrating her. He explicitly desired and was honest in the face of lust. Heat rose in Lorendis’s previously bland eyes. His pupils darkened, captured by lust. The moment she saw those eyes, Catherine instinctively struggled with her legs. It felt like having her nape bitten.

“Don’t struggle.”

“Wait, wait a moment…… Lorendis!”

Catherine calling his name at that moment was a mistake. Something seemed to snap. He pressed down on her pelvis to position himself and thrust his c*ck up. Her vaginal walls, already wet with her juices, soaked the bedding below, and those traces were all over his thighs too. Honey dripped from her p*ssy. Her toes trembled, and her ankles bent.

“Hnngh!”

Tears formed on her fluttering eyebrows. Her body sank into the bed like a cotton ball soaked with water.

“Why are you running away?”

“Mmm.”

“When I see those ankles trying to escape, I strangely want to chase them, trip them, and pin them down.”

Until he caught her fleeing ankles and confined her under Lorendis again, that struggle was easily suppressed. Lorendis grabbed her wrists with his large hands and raised them above her head. He pressured her with his gaze not to lower them.

‘That’s really scary, I’m telling you.’

Even at that moment, Catherine was lying beneath him. Lorendis suppressed even that feeble resistance.

His c*ck reached the end of her cervix. It stirred her stretched inner flesh. From below, she sobbed and cried out, her vaginal walls tightly squeezing.

“You said let’s stay like this.”

She did say such things herself.

“Everyone stays like this, and there’s nothing you can’t do.”

That’s also what I said. Catherine struggled to gather her stinging mind. Her whole body was a mess.

Catherine arched her back and buried her cheek in the pillow.

I’m crazy. Completely insane.

Her wet body was hot with heat. Her mind was mush like kneaded flour dough. Haah, I’m crazy, Catherine Helen……

“A bit.”

“Why?”

“You’re like a beast.”

Lorendis bit her wrist. He took a full bite and licked it with his tongue. Those nibbling lips left clear marks on the inside of her forearm. And his gaze fell lower. Lorendis buried his head.

He was persistent and tenacious. He nibbled, chewed, and left his marks. An overwhelming pressure dominated her lower abdomen, and Catherine cried out several times. Later, even when her voice became hoarse and she whimpered and moaned, Catherine remained beneath him.