There’s no one in the world who can understand and empathize with all of you. Even a mother can’t do that much for her baby.
Then are you going to whine about being lonely to your spouse when you’re all grown up? At least babies are cute.
A relationship where one side unilaterally depends on the other only makes both sides sick. A spouse is also human. Naturally they’ll fall if one side leans too much. And when both fall together, it becomes even harder to get up then.
In this harsh world, will you face it lying on the ground together? So rather than thinking about leaning on something with one leg, stand firmly on two strong legs. Marriage isn’t about not being lonely because you can lean on each other, but being less lonely because you can stand together side by side.
Fortunately, Tatiana had a lot to do lately. Time flew by just swinging her sword all day, and she also had to look into how previous princesses had used their private funds and budget.
While at it, she planned to make time to meet friends too.
Originally, unemployed people are the busiest in the world. But Tatiana was enjoying her hobbies productively on top of this.
Her hobby was intensive reading of magic books. However, no one in the world knew this secret reading of hers. Because she thought showing her hobby to others was somewhat embarrassing and had kept it hidden.
Tatiana still had no magic power. That was essentially already settled when she was 10 years old.
Although it took her another 6-7 years to accept this reality, she had given up now. Yet if anyone knew she still couldn’t let go of magic books…….
‘I’d look quite pathetic, right?’
Perhaps she might even look gloomy from having too much obsession and lingering attachment.
But no matter how much Tatiana wanted to keep this as her private domain, could she avoid the eyes of the maids and ladies-in-waiting? She could. Because these books weren’t written in Valter’s language. This was a new script created by Tatiana’s mother.
How did she end up committing such a great deed? She made it while trying to console her crying daughter who was sobbing because she had no magic power.
Raising children is inherently difficult, and geniuses always have a different scale.
‘Tania, don’t cry. There are many ways to be with magic even without magic power.’
‘……How?’
‘You can write books like Mom, or teach theory to people, right?’
If Tatiana had been a few years older then, she would have refuted her mother’s words with examples like this:
‘Mom, can someone who can’t float teach others how to swim?’
Beyond yes or no, would students trust such a teacher? Would they even get any students?
But back then, Tatiana was young, so rather than digging deep, she just threw a tantrum.
‘I hate it! That’s not being the main character! I don’t want to teach anyone, I want to do it myself!’
Tatiana wanted to be the best. She wanted to show those mages who frequented the mansion what she was made of.
She wanted to flatten the noses of those people who looked at her with various gazes — expectation, doubt, skepticism…… But……
Tatiana’s mother sighed at her daughter’s words and made an expression of deep disappointment. Finding it difficult to hide, she even turned her back on her young daughter for a moment.
‘Tania, applause from others and feeling proud lasts only a moment.’
‘……’
‘Will you dedicate your whole life for that brief moment? Even adults find it hard to do things they don’t like.’
‘……’
‘If that’s your mindset, don’t even start.’
What did that mean? It was too difficult for a child barely 10 years old to understand.
Honestly speaking, Tatiana still didn’t fully understand her mother’s words even now as an adult. She could only clearly feel that Mom had been disappointed in her.
That felt so sad and even scary that she ended up soaking her pillow with tears and snot that night.
And the next day, Tatiana’s mother apologized to her daughter in her own way. With a pale face as if she had stayed up all night, what she brought was a never-before-seen script and decoding method.
‘Even Dad doesn’t know this. It’s a code that only Tania and Mom can read, so don’t tell anyone. Okay?’
‘Really? Yes, I, I won’t tell anyone.’
Letters that only she and her mother could read made young Tatiana’s heart flutter.
Lady Bloom made a complicated expression watching her daughter whose learning desire was highly stimulated. And while patting her daughter’s head, she said:
‘I’m sorry about yesterday. It’s because Mom hasn’t become an adult yet either.’
‘……’
‘I apologize for getting angry. Will you forgive Mom?’
It would have been nice if she had just answered ‘Yes, I love you’ then. But Tatiana, her attention already stolen elsewhere, seemed to have just nodded her head perfunctorily a couple times. That’s how attractive the gift was to her.
But Tatiana’s parents were always like that. Normal parents would have bought candy or dolls for their sulking daughter. Tatiana’s father won martial arts competitions, and Tatiana’s mother achieved the feat of creating a new script in one night.
When she was young, it just seemed amazing and fun, but now that she had grown up, Tatiana sometimes thought:
‘Mother, Father. Couldn’t you have lived a little less impressively…… No, others say they just live since they were born……’
Haven’t you heard people say they almost lived diligently? Thanks to both of you leaving such great footprints, your daughter feels intimidated every time. It’s hard to live in this world.
Not that she resents them. Yes, she’s proud, but she thinks it was really a learning environment that not just anyone could enjoy, but now that she’s grown up, she realizes she couldn’t make good use of it because she was lacking.
Well, anyway, that’s the daughter’s position.
Tatiana stroked Lady Bloom’s handwriting while giggling for a while. And she immersed herself in reading the magic book she had already read hundreds of times, savoring each character once again.
When she closed the last page of the book and left the room, her heart was so fluffy and peaceful. Because the magical world her mother had unfolded was truly precious and beautiful.
Tatiana had often witnessed that wondrous magical world vividly before her eyes when she was young.
Butterflies made with illusion magic fluttered around the Count’s mansion, and flowers bloomed even in winter when her mother was in a good mood. She even turned the mansion into a gingerbread house once to surprise Dad.
Of course, very rarely, really rarely, there were accidents.
Lady Bloom, who wasn’t particularly talented with fire attribute magic, almost burned down the house a couple times…….
Originally, you only remember the beautiful things after time passes. Only the beautiful things.
Tatiana walked around the reception room with light steps and sat on the sofa.
When the princess came out, the ladies-in-waiting all tried to stand up, but Tatiana gestured for them to sit together. Even then, she didn’t forget to warn them not to cross their legs as it would misalign their hips.
But before long, Tatiana went ‘Ah, whatever’ and flopped down on the sofa, resting her head on her arm.
To others’ eyes, it looked like an extremely leisurely and comfortable position.
Of course, it wasn’t actually like that. Didn’t I say? The busiest people in the world are the unemployed.
Tatiana was currently enjoying another one of her hobbies.
In her mind, two excellent knights were glaring at each other, breathing heavily. It seemed like a fight would break out any moment.
One was Tatiana, and the other was…….
Well, since no particular name came to mind, let’s call him Gideon. Gideon sounds good.
Gideon approaches her using a new footwork she had never seen before.
He swings his heavy sword bravely, but Tatiana with her superior flexibility—!
Bends her waist to dodge that sword.
Like a dancer, she spins around and stands straight. And her killing technique that she had been honing all this time…….
‘Ah ah, contestant Gideon dodges that. As expected, he’s not to be underestimated.’
Tatiana’s other hobby was summoning imaginary opponents in her mind and having duels.
Even when staying at the Muller house, she always spent time like this when not holding a sword. It wasn’t just playing around.
Image training is actually a very effective training method for swordsmen. Just one problem was…… people around her had no idea she was training.
To others, she just looked like someone sleeping with their eyes open. The way she occasionally twitched her hands and made faces even made her look like she was having a nightmare.
The ladies-in-waiting sitting across from her tilted their heads.
‘Why is Her Highness doing that again?’
‘Don’t know. When you look carefully, she’s quite unique. Normal but somehow strange in certain ways.’
The ladies-in-waiting started looking for their own tasks with expressions saying they really didn’t understand. Since the princess had already laid down, they thought they might as well apply plenty of something good for her skin.
Unlike other noble ladies, Tatiana was exposed to sunlight very frequently.
Though youth is the best weapon and it doesn’t show yet, the ladies-in-waiting knew. That now was precisely when they should start managing it. If you just rely on natural gifts and neglect care, it all goes down at once.
- ianthe
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