December 8th, Clear ☀

Today In-woo came home late after drinking.

Even if it’s year-end with lots of drinking gatherings, coming home almost at dawn? Of course I trust In-woo. I know nothing would happen even if the drinking went on for 3-4 days but still, I was angry at the excessively late return time.

I couldn’t hold back and nagged a lot but In-woo just laughed. Then he said <The nagging feels like we’re married and I like it>. He went on to talk at length about an actor couple, but I was lost in other thoughts and couldn’t hear properly.

Married…..

I liked that word so much I forgot about being angry. That very short sentence kept replaying in my head. How bewitching. How can someone play with my heart like this?

But then I got angry again when In-woo just fell asleep. How could he get me all excited and just fall asleep?

When In-woo woke up the next day, he apologized to me. As compensation for the apology, I had s*x with In-woo all day.

***

February 3rd, Snow ☃

Late last year, In-woo’s words stirred me up.

Marriage.

It’s a good word.

While it’s a meaningless concept for Arkea, from Earth’s perspective there was no more perfect relationship. Isn’t it a relationship where you’re legally and privately lovers while being responsible for each other? I am In-woo’s and In-woo is mine, but I needed a relationship with more definite binding power.

After looking at rings for two months and finally deciding on a design I liked, I completed the proposal preparations.

But I’m worried. Will In-woo really be happy about marrying me?

We can’t have a public wedding ceremony anyway, and nothing will change on the surface. Unlike the usual meaning, we couldn’t become legal spouses here in Korea. It would just be exchanging rings and calling each other spouses. Will In-woo want to marry me when it would be just a half-relationship? Originally In-woo doesn’t like that kind of superficial stuff anyway…

Suddenly I’m losing confidence.

Will In-woo really like this? In-woo is someone who hits my back in embarrassment when I honestly express my love sometimes.

Of course I have no intention of backing out after preparing this far. I wanted to put the ring that was made to fit perfectly on In-woo’s left ring finger. I wanted to say that I would take responsibility for you for life.

Just…

Let me think about it a bit more. February is kind of uncool, isn’t it? It’s still a cold and chilly season. Spring suits In-woo better.

***

May 7th, Clear ☀

Today, I finally proposed to In-woo. It was a proposal I barely managed after agonizing for nearly half a year.

Originally I was going to do it without much thought on April 27th, our 4th anniversary, but thinking that overlapping anniversaries wasn’t great, I postponed it a bit.

I wondered if I should space the anniversaries far apart, but then thought maybe having two anniversaries close together would make In-woo block out that whole period for schedules, so I placed them vaguely close. After all, In-woo wasn’t the type to get it over with at once just because anniversaries were close. My Kim In-woo who’s more diligent than anyone while grumbling with words.

So I decided on today. The proposal included some calculation starting from the date.

In-woo was silent for a while after receiving the ring. Just when I was going through all sorts of regret in my head thinking it was a negative reaction and wanting to hang myself, In-woo suddenly pulled me into a tight hug. And started sobbing loudly.

In-woo was incredibly moved by my proposal. Meaning it was a huge success.

Only after crying for a while did In-woo stammer out the reason for crying. Though he knew we’d be together for life, we were a relationship that couldn’t be recognized. From In-woo’s position having experienced family breakdown once, a relationship not bound by legal framework seemed even more easily breakable… He said with a pretty face that he’d never even thought about marriage so he was happy I proposed first.

Though he won’t be able to wear it all the time, looking at the ring on his left ring finger, In-woo smiled like he owned the world. His expression was better than when he won the award at the film festival last time.

I’m glad I proposed. I almost shot the ring into space, but if I had done that I would have regretted it for life.

When I asked if we should go abroad to get married, he seemed uneasy about anything that could be discovered by others’ eyes, so we decided to consider it common law marriage for now. When I asked if we weren’t already common law married, In-woo’s face turned bright red and said he thought he was just freeloading. Though I was joking, seeing him respond seriously showed how surprised and flustered he was.

He’s so cute I want to bite him. I actually did bite him enthusiastically. When I came to my senses, In-woo’s whole body was a mess with my bite marks.

I’m happy.

***

June 10th, Clear ☀

Came to Hawaii for honeymoon with In-woo.

Though it hadn’t been long since our 4th anniversary trip, we couldn’t just skip over the important honeymoon.

Every time we travel I think this, but since we’re going to spend a day or two just rolling around in bed not leaving the room anyway, why bother making detailed schedules.

Though we didn’t go anywhere, it was a satisfying day.

Because In-woo is much more beautiful than the scenery. Because anywhere is good as long as I’m with In-woo.

***

January 1st, Clear ☀

In-woo won the acting grand prize today for the drama that ended last October.

In-woo finished his acceptance speech with a bright excited face showing no signs of tears, but later when we were alone he buried himself in my arms and cried his heart out.

Though I had known it was In-woo’s predetermined position, actually seeing that scene in person was moving. I patted and comforted In-woo’s back as he sobbed.

In the past I would have dismissed this situation as nothing special. Being able to feel such big emotions from small things now was all thanks to In-woo.

I find In-woo lovable, and at the same time I’m grateful to In-woo.

I like In-woo so much. So much that I don’t know what to do with how much I like him.

***

May 29th Clear ☀

Raseti contacted me urgently saying to come. That was all they said.

I suppose I should go. I’ll have to tell In-woo I’m going on a business trip.