Do Not Feed Recklessly - Chapter 6. Part 4

Jia playfully tossed her hair and struck a pose as if to show off her cuteness. Ethan, at first confused by her actions, was suddenly surprised by the way her shirt hugged her curves, causing him to look away in shock.

“Ugh…”

Then an inappropriate remark from one of the troublemakers flashed through his mind: ‘I hear Asian girls have a tight p*ssy.”

The thought entered his mind against his will and he felt a wave of embarrassment wash over him.

‘F*ck, why am I thinking about that now?’

Ethan thought, chewing on the soft flesh in his mouth, trying to think straight. But it wasn’t easy. 

His racing brain hadn’t stopped, it had gone further, imagining a picture of Jia’s n*ked body. Her br*asts are perky against her petite frame. And her small waist. It wasn’t hard to imagine what was underneath because he’d already seen it.

Jia was right next to him, feeling no guilt and driving him crazy with his racing thoughts.

Ethan struggled to hold on to the threads of sanity as he felt his d*ck getting harder and harder. 

“Hey, hey, Jia.

“Why?”

“I’m going home.”

“What? Are you crazy? I’m coming with you and my mom said I could…”

“No, I’ve got a headache. I think I’m going to have a fever.

“Don’t f*ck with me, your face is f*cking fine right now!”

His mind, which had just been imagining his girlfriend Jia n*ked, wouldn’t stop. He even imagined sticking his d*ck into her tight hole.

“Damn, I’m losing it. I’m really losing it.” 

“Yeah, you seem a bit off.” 

“Jia, can I just go out and leave?” 

“What’s wrong with you today?” 

“Why are you so short, anyway…?” 

“What? Are you trying to start something?” 

“No, no, I’m sorry… I didn’t mean it…”

After the planned party was canceled, all he could do at home was squeeze and wiggle his erect p*nis, vividly recalling the image of the woman he had seen earlier that day.

As he m*sturbated again and again, he felt guilty and self-conscious. 

He couldn’t bring himself to face her properly; his heart was racing and he felt an overwhelming need to see her. It wasn’t just a physical attraction, but a desire for more – like wanting to hug her, hold her hand, kiss her, and so on.

“Ahh, f*ck, this is crazy.” 

As the scene replayed in his mind, Ethan ran his hands through his hair in frustration. It was unbearable and he couldn’t stand how disturbing it felt.

The worst part of all was that the blinds in his room were no longer down

* **

This wasn’t the only unusual behavior he had noticed in himself. Recently, he found himself becoming more interested in Korea, a country he had never paid much attention to before. He started looking up Korean dramas and songs and even browsing travel blogs and videos about Seoul.

“So Jia lived here…”

Ethan was no fool. He realized that something was changing inside him. However, he did not intend to reveal what he was feeling, nor did he intend to do so.

“Seriously, is Jia like this? Is she going to like this or not?”

That’s all he did, sitting alone in the corner of the room, fiddling around, picking up information about Korea, and occasionally m*sturbating in a dirty way while thinking about Jia.

Ethan believed that as long as he kept his feelings for Jia hidden, he could stay by her side for a long time. However, he had no idea he would later come to regret that choice.

* * *

At some point, Jia completely disappeared from his sight. Since they became adults, their paths had drifted apart, and they no longer crossed each other’s lives like they used to.

Still, it was strange that there had been no sign of life in Jia’s room for several days. The lights hadn’t been on at night either.    

‘What’s going on? Did she go on a trip? Without telling me?’ he wondered.

He was worried that something bad had happened to her, but her parents seemed completely at ease. It was as if Jia had vanished without a trace as if she had never existed.

‘She’d come back eventually; she must be traveling.’

As that thought crossed his mind, a growing sense of worry began to take hold. 

‘Did Jia go to Korea?’ 

‘Did Jia go on a trip?’ 

Unable to hold back any longer, Ethan asked Jia’s mother, but her answer was devastating. 

“Oh dear, I don’t know what to do…” 

“What? Is something wrong with Jia?” 

“She asked me to keep it a secret, but…” 

The words that followed, along with her troubled expression, left Ethan completely stunned. 

“Actually, Jia got a job… at a company in Korea.” 

“…What? In Korea?” 

“She’s moving to Korea. She is already in Seoul to start her independent life.” 

It felt like he’d been hit by a sledgehammer. Ethan’s mind went blank and he barely managed to keep himself from collapsing.

Amid the shock, a thought suddenly crossed Ethan’s mind. Even at that moment, he was surprised he could come up with such an idea. Feeling proud of himself, he blurted it out.

“Wow! That’s great!” 

“Really?” 

“Yeah! I’ve been thinking about studying Korean!” 

It was a ridiculous thing to say. Studying in Korea? In all his 25 years, Ethan had never considered it. Yet, without hesitation, he kept rambling. 

“I know a little Korean! Like, ‘Hello,’ ‘Thank you,’ ‘I’m Ethan. I’m from Australia.'” 

The phrases he had picked up during his secret research were very basic. Mustering all his strength, Ethan rattled off everything he knew in Korean. 

“Since Jia is there, I can be sure it’s okay to go to Korea!”

Jia’s mom’s face brightened noticeably.

“Oh, really? That’s great! I’ll ask Jia to help you. When we first moved here, we relied so much on your parents…”

It felt like a glimmer of hope.

“Please keep it a secret from Jia. I want to surprise her when I get there.”

Ethan suppressed the whirlwind of emotions – betrayal, sadness, disappointment – and pretended to be unaffected as he began researching Korean language programs. Fortunately, most of the top universities in Korea offered language courses, and it seemed relatively easy to get a visa by simply paying the semester fees. 

So Ethan booked a flight to Korea. His mind was consumed by thoughts of Jia, making it the only reckless and impulsive decision he had ever made.