Chapter 78

“Say that after you’ve hurt me first.”

“…”

He stared down at me for a moment, speechless, then spoke again.

“Is it okay if I break your body?”

I held my breath.

My chest swelled, rising and falling repeatedly.

The idea of him breaking my body stirred a strange excitement in me.

It was exactly what I had always wanted from him.

“…I’m tougher than I look, so you’ll have to go all night to manage that.”

“…”

His lips pressed into a firm line, and his jaw tightened.

In the silent atmosphere, his gaze wavered for a moment before he let out a strained groan and sat up, raising his upper body.

He knelt between my thighs, loosening his pants.

I swallowed hard.

The focused, serious look in his narrow eyes, coupled with his furrowed brow, was both sweet and sensual.

As his clothes slipped off, my eyes naturally followed downward.

“…!”

I inhaled sharply in surprise.

My entire body felt as though it was tensing up.

“Alec…”

Was it always like that?

It wasn’t the first time I’d seen it.

But it had been almost two years since I last saw it, and even then, I hadn’t gotten a proper look.

From our very first night together, he hadn’t wanted to show it to me.

And since he had been reluctant, I hadn’t pushed to see more.

I didn’t want to make him uncomfortable or hurt my own pride by asking for something he didn’t want to show.

But now, there was no hint of reluctance on his face as he revealed himself in front of me.

In fact, seeing my gaze locked onto him, he bit his lip, his body becoming even more aroused.

The air between us was thick with tension.

“Alec…”

“…”

I clutched the sheets, barely managing to speak.

He leaned down.

“Today, when I first saw Wiltsbrook Castle, I was amazed and overwhelmed… ah.”

“…”

“But… but what you have is even more impressive and magnificent than that castle.”

“…Ha.”

At my words, he let out a complicated sigh, lowering his head.

Was he embarrassed?

Pressing his elbow into the sheets beside my head, he began to explore my lower abdomen with his other hand, responding with difficulty.

His words carried a complex breath of emotion.

“…Thank you.”

“So, don’t hide it from me anymore.”

“…”

With something like that, shouldn’t he have been more proud?

Why had he lacked confidence and pride in front of me until now?

Could it be that he was embarrassed because he thought it was too much?

Finally, his hand moved lower, beneath my belly.

“Ah.”

Any trace of the cold had already disappeared in the heat of his touch.

His eyes, looking down at me from such a close distance, were tense and trembling.

“You might really regret this…”

No.

I felt like my heart was going to burst with anticipation.

I grabbed onto his muscular arm tightly and responded.

“If you don’t come inside me right now…”

“…”

“You’ll regret it greatly.”

My voice had a slightly cold edge.

But before I even finished speaking, he slid his hand under my slender waist.

With one arm wrapped around my waist, he pulled me down slightly.

My body shifted easily, and with a heavy sigh, he positioned himself beneath me.

“…Ahh.”

Feeling the weight of him, I clung tighter to his arms.

It was hot and heavy.

If there was such a thing as the most beautiful and sacred weapon in the world, it would be this.

Holding onto something like that…

I wondered what it would feel like if we did it properly.

People always said that the first time was painful, but I had always thought it would be better if it hurt at least a little.

Now, I was finally about to experience something I had been curious about in both this life and my previous one.

Then, he spoke in a strained, broken voice, avoiding my gaze.

“Tell me if it hurts.”

With that, the muscles in his abs tensed as though they were going to fuse into one.

“Hnn.”

I shut my eyes tightly and lifted my chin.

I didn’t even have the chance to respond to his words.

I had expected it to be difficult to accept him easily, but I didn’t realize it would be this intense.

Yet, that only made the satisfaction all the more overwhelming.

He grabbed my chin and made me look into his eyes.

“Louise.”

“Hnn, Alec…”

Finally, we…

I looked at him with teary eyes, overwhelmed with emotion.

It was awe-inspiring and incredible.

But then, with a deep, steady voice, he added,

“This isn’t over yet.”

…?

I thought he was all the way in already—

“Ah!”

“…Ahhh.”

His sweet moan echoed in my ear.

But even then, it seemed like it wasn’t over. He studied my face carefully, letting out a long sigh before leaning down.

His hot, moist lips captured mine.

This…

So this is what it feels like…

Though we hadn’t fully started yet, it already felt like the world had stopped.

His movements brought a gasp of wonder from me.

“…Ah!”

After that, he truly handled me as though he were going to break my body.

“Ah, ah!”

* * *

I lay in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling for a long time, even after opening my eyes.

It was clearly daylight outside, bright sunlight streaming into the room.

In the fireplace, coal glowed with heat, though I had no idea when or who had lit it. I was dressed in thick pajamas.

“…Sigh.”

Did Alec do all of this before he left?

I still hadn’t fully come back to my senses.

I lay sprawled across the wide bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Everything that happened last night—or rather, early this morning—felt like a dream.

It was an experience far beyond what I had imagined.

He was so healthy and strong, like a dam bursting after years of being held back. I was still not fully recovered.

My vision spun, the bed creaked and scraped against the stone floor, but I had no energy to care.

I had been overwhelmed by his strength so many times that I felt like my soul had nearly left my body.

‘So, that’s what it’s like…’

My throat was sore from how much I had screamed.

I was still reeling from the sensation, as if my whole body had been on fire.

The first time I had ever experienced such intimacy was far more intense and satisfying than I had ever imagined.

But what had satisfied me even more was his reaction rather than the sensation inside me.

Rather than me, who had longed for intimacy with him, it was he who seemed to feel even more.

The way his Adam’s apple bobbed as he tilted his head back, groaning in pleasure.

His perfectly sculpted muscles, glistening with sweat, looked even more tempting.

The intense movements he made, pouring all his energy into me.

The way he flipped me over as easily as if I were a piece of paper with just one arm.

And the way he was on the brink of losing his mind the entire time we were together…

“…Sigh.”

I let out a deep breath, pressing my heated cheeks with my hand.

It felt like I had just woken from a fantastical dream.

Though I had enjoyed it, seeing my husband so utterly captivated felt even more like a dream.

After lingering in the afterglow of my true first experience for a while, I finally managed to sit up.

“Ugh…”

As soon as I straightened my back, a groan slipped out of me.

It was like the morning after an intense workout—my entire body ached.

While we were together, I had wanted things to be even more intense, but the aftereffects were this bad.

I gritted my teeth and stood up, swinging my legs out of bed.

But the moment I took a step…

“Ah!”

My legs buckled beneath me, and I fell without even realizing it.

“Ah…”

I couldn’t even walk properly.

As I placed my palms on the floor, a strange sense of satisfaction washed over me at my pitiful state.

Even though standing was difficult, it didn’t feel all that bad.

I just let my whole body relax and lay down on the floor.

Once again, I stared dreamily at the ceiling.

His traces lingered all over my body, manifesting as muscle pain.

I felt a sense of pride.

I had endured a loveless marriage for three years, spending nights alone.

All the loneliness and sorrow seemed to have washed away completely.

Even if my body ached more than this, I would still feel happy.

After spending a long time relishing the faint pain, I finally forced myself to stand up.

I barely made my way to the mirror and lifted the nightgown over my head.

I had never been more curious to see my body.

As I slowly took in my full reflection in the mirror, I couldn’t help but gasp.

“Ah.”

Was this really my body?

As I moved closer to inspect myself, I saw reddish marks—whether they were kiss marks or faint bruises, I wasn’t sure.

I could see how much he had indulged in me last night, and that made me feel proud.

‘Wow, he must have really enjoyed it…’

Feeling a bit shy, I lowered my flushed face and hurriedly put my clothes back on.

The satisfaction from my first time made me want to smile, but I held it in.

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