Chapter 62

When the same dinner menu and the unpleasant juice after meals had been repeated for several days.

“Oppa……”

Haji, who couldn’t fall asleep while rustling in his arms, peeked her head up.

“Don’t you feel, like, a strange feeling?”

“A strange feeling?”

At Seojin’s feigned ignorance, Haji pressed her lower lip with her upper teeth. Her eyes showed she was contemplating something.

“You know, like……”

“Like what?”

“Like you want to kiss?”

She said it while sneaking a cute glance.

Seojin swallowed a laugh inside and placed a light kiss on her lips. He only kissed her, even as Haji closed her eyes at the touch of his lips.

“This?”

“……”

Haji’s expression was now truly one of perplexity, her lips moving slightly.

It was clear what was bothering her. She had been feeding him eel and abalone every day and even giving him eel juice after meals.

“Maybe……”

For a moment, a look of gloom appeared in Haji’s eyes.

“Am I not attractive as a woman?”

“Oh.”

He hadn’t thought about that.

He just found it delightful that she seemed to expect something, watching him with sparkling eyes during meals and when drinking eel juice.

He liked that she thought of him all day, so he pretended not to know.

Seeing tears welling up in her clear eyes, Seojin’s expression crumbled. A low sigh escaped his lips.

“That’s not it.”

“Then why don’t you do anything?”

“Because you……”

Because you’re hurting.

Because you haven’t escaped from the nightmare yet.

He couldn’t feel desire seeing Haji crying in his arms, dreaming and returning to that day.

Of course, when she provoked him like now, his body reacted against his will, but he could pretend not to notice.

“Hmm?”

Haji tugged at Seojin’s t-shirt, urging him to answer.

“It’s not that you’re not attractive as a woman.”

If that were true, I wouldn’t be struggling like this.

Haji, unaware of the tension in his lower body, blinked her eyes.

“That’s not it.”

“Then why don’t you……with me?”

Searching for the right word, Haji’s eyes darted around. Then, as if making a decision, she pushed away Seojin’s arm and the blanket covering her and sat up abruptly.

“Why aren’t you sleeping with me?”

“Not sleeping with you?”

“Why, why don’t you kiss and then go further with me!”

Frustrated by Seojin’s feigned ignorance, Haji raised her voice, telling him to stop pretending.

“……”

“Is that really it?”

“What?”

Convinced by Seojin’s silence, Haji lowered her eyes sorrowfully. She seemed to be thinking hard, then closed and opened her eyes.

Just when he thought he couldn’t follow the flow of the conversation, Haji spoke again.

“I even had a health check-up.”

“Health check-up?”

Seojin propped his head with his arm at the sudden mention of a health check-up.

“To be healthy, you said.”

“I did.”

“But……”

The health I mentioned was not that kind of health.

It was about your sleep state or psychology.

Seojin nodded at Haji’s words without expressing his thoughts.

“You should have gotten one too.”

“…… Why do you think so?”

Seojin’s eyebrows rose slightly. He thought he understood what she meant by seeking health at this point.

“They say it can happen when you’re busy with work and stressed. It’s something that can easily happen to men.”

“Hmm.”

“So don’t worry.”

If that’s true, how could I not worry?

Seojin looked at Haji, who was talking about an imaginary disorder that seemed unlikely to happen to him.

“I’m glad you know well.”

“Yes, I heard it from Jinkyung unnie and looked it up a lot.”

So it was the woman next door who said this.

He thought it wasn’t a topic Haji would come up with alone. Since her experiences with him were her first, she was ignorant about relationships.

Lately, she’s been meeting her often, having unnecessary conversations…

Seojin glanced at Haji, who was giving him a determined look.

Haji, who had been nodding confidently, widened her eyes, which had been filled with tears until a moment ago, and forced herself to be strong.

She really believed there was something wrong with her now.

“I’ll help with everything I can!”

“Everything?”

“Yes, everything!”

Misunderstanding Seojin’s silence as discouragement, Haji rolled up her sleeves.

“In that case, I’ll accept your offer.”

Seojin extended his arm and held Haji’s hand.

***

How did it come to this?

Haji looked at the firm *rection shaking in her hand. More precisely, held by his guidance.

“Grip it tighter.”

Following Seojin’s voice, which was lower than usual, she tightened her grip.

“Ha.”

As a sound close to a moan escaped his lips, Haji’s hand moved faster.

The *rection, which hadn’t fully fit in one hand from the moment it was held, kept growing endlessly.

“It’s getting bigger……”

Seojin’s mouth curled upward at Haji’s voice, which murmured in disbelief.

Haji, unable to see his face, was busy observing the changes in front of her.

The thin skin of the *rection, with bulging veins, felt bumpy. As her hand moved up and down, the skin shifted.

Having never seen his member in such detail before, she couldn’t take her eyes off it, as if seeing something fascinating. Unaware that it was getting more excited by her gaze.

Before she knew it, the wet tip felt slippery in her palm. As it became easier to move, Haji shook her hand up and down faster.

With the pillar growing hot and hard, Seojin’s breathing became rough.

“Ugh……”

Hearing his breathing clearly gave her an unknown sense of satisfaction. She gripped harder at the intense gaze watching her.

She saw his reddened neck bobbing as if holding something back.

His body, which had been lying sideways, was now lying flat. Sweat beads formed on his firm abs, which looked like they were drawn with a line.

“Is it good?”

At her question, close to certainty, Seojin’s sharp eyes narrowed. The growling sound from his throat served as an answer.

Feeling the heat in her hand, Haji took a deep breath and stroked the pillar in her hand. She applied a bit more pressure, pushing from the base to the tip.

Sticky fluid clung between her fingers. She felt her own body heating up with his organ’s changes.

Biting her itchy lips and moistening them with her tongue, her red tongue exposed to the air made Seojin’s gaze deepen.

At that moment, Haji’s thumb brushed over the slit at the tip. As she rubbed it, Seojin’s chin jutted out.

“Ha.”

She felt his body tense up. Simultaneously, her own body tensed. Oddly, her toes felt ticklish and tingly.

As the *rection throbbed violently and bobbed, Haji shook her hand, wet with pr*cum.

Despite his ragged breathing, he looked at her with an unruffled face. Meeting his gaze, which maintained calmness despite the activity below, sent a thrill through her body.

“More, a bit more.”

His urging was a sight she couldn’t usually see, making it more satisfying.

The palm that constantly shook the *rection felt hot from friction. She couldn’t tell if the heat about to explode came from the member or her heated hand.

“Hmph.”

Suddenly, the *rection twitched powerfully, pulsing from the base. As the friction of her vigorously moving palm stopped, thick white s*men spurted from the flushed gl*ns.

She felt the pulse from the *rection she hadn’t released yet. Seeing this unfamiliar sight for the first time, Haji’s expression was blank as she blinked. Unaware of why her breathing was also labored with his.

“Stop.”

Seojin’s cracked voice halted Haji’s movements.

Only then did Haji realize she had unknowingly been rubbing the tip of his gl*ns. The sensitive, swollen area welcomed her hand, opening and closing.

“Ah……”

Finally grasping the situation, Haji slowly withdrew her hand.

Then she tilted her head, looking at the slippery fluid in her hand.

“It seems too healthy……?”

It was clear that the erectile dysfunction she had researched was not this.

“That’s fortunate.”

His calm voice left her feeling uneasy. It was an inexplicable feeling of being deceived.

“Huh……?”

Her hand, stained with his fluid, was wiped with a tissue. Watching her fingers being cleaned thoroughly, Haji glanced at his member, still unchanged.

“It would be better if you stopped looking.”

“It hasn’t shrunk……”

“Because you’re looking.”

Does he mean it won’t shrink if I look?

“Is it fixed?”

“Who knows.”

At Seojin’s ambiguous answer, Haji frowned, tilting her head.

“Isn’t this okay……?”

Mumbling to herself, she looked at the stiff *rection asserting itself. Then, as if enchanted, her fingertip nudged it.

“Haji.”

His voice was as usual, but it felt richer, or was it just her imagination?

“Stop it.”