Chapter 13

Since she was married, Alice was expected to become a temptress at night who could satisfy her husband, yet she was told not to appear overly eager. During the day, she was to appear modest and maintain her authority in front of others. How contradictory such words were.  

However, Alice did not argue with her mother’s scolding and listened silently. She didn’t want to say anything unpleasant to a mother who had lived her entire life believing such things were common sense. Instead, she decided to think, as Dorothea had said, that these were not the norms of her generation but rather her parents’.  

“I understand, Mother. I’ll be careful.”  

“Even if it’s painful and difficult, endure it well. Once you get pregnant, you can ask your husband not to touch you, so being pregnant is more convenient in many ways.”  

Alice suddenly felt strange about her mother’s words. When she had first been intimate with Daniel, it was overwhelming and exhausting, but it wasn’t so painful that she had to grit her teeth and bear it.  

‘Could it be that Mother always found it difficult with Father?’  

After all, it was hard to imagine her father, who had grown up as the heir to the Duke’s household, making an effort to satisfy a woman. To Alice, he was a kind and warm father, but Duke Mistry was someone who, by nature, expected others to adjust to him rather than adjusting to others.  

Compared to that, Daniel had always been gentle, trying to accommodate Alice even from a young age.  

Thinking about how Daniel had tenderly licked her body to arouse her, Alice’s face flushed, and she felt a dull heat rise within her. Startled by the warmth spreading in her abdomen, Alice quickly grabbed the teacup in front of her and drank.  

“In any case, have a child soon. Everything will become easier that way.”  

“Yes…”  

Her mother’s voice, filled with a sense of resignation, seemed to carry the weight of her past struggles. Alice felt uneasy, wondering what her father could have done to make her mother so negative about marital relations.  

Both parents had always been loving to Alice, but seeing this side of them made her feel pity.  

When Alice returned home, she secretly opened the booklet her mother had given her. Seeing an illustration of a woman lying face down with a man entering her from behind, she felt it was so animalistic that she nearly felt nauseated. Yet, at the same time, she imagined herself in such a position with Daniel.  

If Daniel were to enter me like that…  

“Ah…”  

Recalling the intense pleasure she had felt when they had been intimate, her body grew warm. Feeling embarrassed by her contradictory reaction—thinking it was animalistic yet becoming aroused—Alice tried to calm herself but eventually couldn’t resist and went to her bedroom to lie down.  

Lying down with the intention of relieving her own desires, she felt like she had become a woman who was too eager.  

Recently, Daniel had been leaving early in the morning and returning late at night. However, Alice felt that she couldn’t endure in her current state until he returned that evening. Blushing deeply, she began to touch herself.  

Starting with her waist, where Daniel’s touch had always felt pleasant, she rubbed her thighs while her other hand slipped under her undergarments to tease her n*pples.  

“Ha…”  

As her undergarments began to hinder her pleasure, Alice threw them off and started caressing her n*pples more actively. While Daniel had done his best to please her, she found that exploring her own body allowed her to discover even more satisfying sensations. It was as though a new world had opened up to her.  

“Ah… ha… ah…”  

The pleasure spread quickly from her chest, surging to her abdomen and groin. She moved one hand to her thighs while continuing to tease her n*pples with the other.  

Soft yet slightly coarse hairs covered the mound of her groin, and beneath the soft hill, her moist, tender flesh awaited her touch. Spreading her legs, Alice began to carefully rub her sensitive flesh.  

She experimented with rubbing up and down, side to side, and eventually found the motion that brought her the most pleasure. Panting heavily, she continued to rub the sensitive area between her legs.  

‘Ah… If someone saw me like this, how embarrassing it would be.’  

Blushing, Alice glanced at the bedroom door. 

What if Daniel walked in and saw me like this?  

‘No, Daniel mustn’t see this. I’d be too embarrassed to face him.’  

But then she wondered how Daniel would react if he saw her in such an indecent state.  

“Ah…”  

Imagining Daniel watching her from between her legs, Alice blushed furiously. Her hand didn’t stop, rubbing her cl*toris as a sticky wetness spread from her folds, making her feel increasingly aroused.  

“Ha… ha… ah… ha…”  

The pleasure coursing through her body grew stronger, and the desire to reach its peak intensified. Alice’s hand moved more vigorously, and the wet, squelching sounds filled the quiet room. The sound embarrassed her, yet it also heightened her arousal. Eventually, a powerful wave of pleasure surged from deep within her, overtaking her body and leaving her trembling.  

“Ah…”  

Lying on the bed, panting, Alice eventually sat up. Seeing the evidence of her arousal on her fingers, she quickly wiped it away in embarrassment.  

“Phew…”  

After picking up her discarded clothes and tidying the bed as though nothing had happened, Alice sat back on the sofa. The lingering sensation of warmth in her groin made sitting feel strange.  

‘Is this what they call frustration?’  

Ever since she had awakened to s*xual pleasure, her body reacted whenever she thought of such sensual images or imagined intimacy. Feeling embarrassed, Alice’s face grew hot.  

‘How could a married woman feel frustrated like this…’  

Then, Alice suddenly realized that Daniel hadn’t touched her since their first night together.  

– Men betray women who’ve been with others before marriage, but they remain devoted to women who were inexperienced.

Her mother’s words echoed in her mind, sending a chill down her spine.  

‘Could it be that Daniel suspects I wasn’t a virgin because there was no maiden’s blood?’  

Her heart sank.  

‘If that’s true… then what should I do?’  

This was not a matter she could discuss with her family. Both families believed that the couple had consummated their marriage on their wedding night and assumed that Alice had bled.