Prologue 

“Hmm…… Lix.”

The darkened Mendel family townhouse was heating up with the warmth of visitors who had come after a long time. The mansion where they had run around together as children was now filled, not with peals of laughter, but with unfamiliar m*ans.

“……Wait, just a moment.”

At the voice that was almost a plea, the hand stroking her thigh stopped at once. As if clinging to the last of his patience, Felix, who had been burying his face between her legs, lifted his head and looked up at Ellen.

If he were to follow his greed, he wanted to tear apart that damned negligee first, but imagining Ellen becoming frightened, Felix restrained himself. Instead, he gently stroked down Ellen’s body, stiff with tension, and quietly met her eyes.

“It feels…… it feels strange.”

“It’s not strange, it feels good, Ellie.”

I read it in a book.

Swallowing the words in his mouth, he wrapped his hand around Ellen’s faintly trembling fingers. Ellen, who had been silently watching him, parted her small lips and drew in a breath.

As if the inside of her undergarmenr was too cramped, her pale white br*asts rose and fell greatly, trembling visibly. As expected, there had been a reason the men at the party had been stealing glances at her from the corners of their eyes.

“For me…… you’re my first, Felix.”

“It’s my first time too.”

At those words, so natural that there was no need to question them, Felix smiled lightly and kissed Ellen on the forehead. Then he roughly pushed aside the underwear that looked ready to burst at any moment and searched for the flesh hidden beneath.

He wanted to be as slow, gentle, and tender as possible, but this was his limit now. From the moment he brought the drunken Ellen in here, no, perhaps from every moment he had ever faced Ellen, maybe he had wanted to do something like this.

Something wicked, like monopolizing and conquering a secret place no one else had ever seen.

“N-no way. If it’s your first time, there’s no way you could be this skilled…… ahng.”

When he pinched her plump n*pple between his fingers and tugged, Ellen twisted her waist and let out a m*an. The sight was so stimulating that Felix barely managed to suppress the urge to thr*st straight into her.

“……Don’t stare at me like that.”

But apparently feeling deeply uncomfortable with the situation, Ellen spoke in a timid voice while covering her face with both hands. In the expression that showed for a brief moment, there was even something like guilt.

After he had been so careful about this.

Could it be that, in the meantime, she had met someone she liked at the party? Watching Ellen react differently from what he had expected, the ugly feelings he had kept pressed down for so long surged up like a flood.

“Why? Do you hate looking at my face?”

“It’s not that, but…… I don’t think friends should do this.”

“Friends?”

Repeating her words, Felix frowned. Not only could he not understand Ellen bringing up friendship after they had already come this far, but it was only natural that he grew angry at her reaction, which oddly felt as if she were pushing him away.

“A little while ago, you said you wanted to try it before marriage.”

“That’s true, but……”

“Friends do things like this too, Ellie. We’re closer than anyone, aren’t we? Childhood friends.”

“But……”

“There is no ‘but,’ Ellie. From now on, even if you tell me to stop, I won’t stop. I’ve stopped wanting to hold back.”

He could vaguely hear Ellen’s voice as if she were trying to stop him, but it was quickly swallowed into his mouth. As though afraid she might be taken away, his hurried hand wrapped around her slender waist and pulled her body close.

Soon, as if confirming each other’s presence, their tongues, tangled up in a mess, moved softly and made lewd sounds.

She knew in her head that she should push him away, but whenever she felt something hot and firm between her legs, Ellen’s strength naturally gave out. It was as if her body was longing for something she herself did not know.

As though he understood all of Ellen’s circumstances, Felix began aligning himself with her damp opening without any hesitation. Gripping and stroking his fully swollen length, he finally pushed that huge thing between Ellen’s legs.

“Ahng, Lix……!”

At the pain that felt as though her body were being pierced by a fire poker, a suffering m*an slipped from Ellen’s lips. But only for a moment. The pain coursing through her entire body soon changed into an indescribable thrill.

How had we, who had done nothing more than kiss each other on the cheek, ended up coming this far?

Blinking her dimmed eyes, Ellen gradually adjusted to the sensations Felix was giving her. As if to announce the changed situation, on the wall the picture of a snowman she had drawn with Felix as a child was smiling brightly.

Back then, I never once imagined I would do something like this with Felix……

The beginning of it all was a week ago.