Perhaps I kept wanting to stand on stage waiting for that moment. Continuously, even while slipping and falling. Endlessly, even while being treated as a fool or an unworldly dreamer.
It’s thanks to you, Yuan.
I keep saying it though you must be tired of hearing it. I tried to maintain an appropriate distance as your “actress.”
Well, if I wanted to be so thorough, I shouldn’t have accepted the restaurant introduction or brought tea leaves and medicine bottles into my home.
You’ve probably already noticed, but I’m not as great an actress as you praise me to be. Is that still okay? Please tell me it’s okay.
Is that too childish?
Maybe it’s because it’s dawn, but my writing is getting long. I wouldn’t normally write this, but, well, when I wake up in the morning, I might want to run back to the mailbox and retrieve this neatly stamped letter.
But I want to say it now. I tend to be reckless. Though I’m timid, when I focus on one thing, I charge toward it, unable to see my surroundings. So, in conclusion……
I’d like you to keep liking me. While I’m always moved by the feelings you show, I’m simultaneously afraid of when that passion might cool, and though I think I should distance myself from such excessive affection, I keep failing. Still, what I mean is…
Thank you, Yuan.
Have a good night.
April 20,
Hoping to be Yuan’s eternal actress, Perry.]
[Yuan, please burn the letter you just received, okay? I’m asking you.
Please.
PLEASE!
April 20, Perry.]
[To Yuan
Were you surprised by the flurry of letters? I’m sorry. But I have my reasons.
Right after sending the second letter, I realized it. That you would never burn my letter. Because you’re the Yuan who talked about permanent preservation even for syrup with an expiration date.
Is my guess correct? If so, please draw hearts and stars.
Though it’s embarrassing, I’ll forget about the letter that has already left my hands. Because there’s much more important news.
What could this “much more important news” be?
If it’s you, you’ve probably already guessed. Or perhaps you opened the wrapping before the letter? It’s a gift.
You wouldn’t refuse it, would you? We’re friends after all. Besides, it’s quite modest compared to the mountain of medicine bottles you gave me.
Though you probably know more about these things than I do, I still wanted to give it to you. Tie pins are usually worn at formal occasions, right?
……Right?
Let me explain in advance that I was swayed by the department store clerk’s sales pitch. Still, the clerk should be more knowledgeable about men’s fashion trends than I am. I know nothing about it.
You probably have much more sophisticated tie pins, but…… I thought I chose a fairly formal design, but if not, please just keep it. I’d be a bit upset, but what can I do? It’s due to my lack of taste.
It had been a very long time since I visited a department store. Especially on a weekend. I must have gone through nearly ten stores? After much deliberation, I ended up choosing a product from the very first store I entered.
Isn’t the shallowly engraved logo on the pin quite elegant? The texture feels luxurious, and the craftsmanship is clean, making it suitable for various occasions.
Oh, let me say in advance that you don’t need to worry about money! Since you know my situation quite well, I’m explaining to prevent unnecessary imagination.
I’ve paid off all my debts! Next month’s and even the following month’s rent are covered.
I received my salary from the restaurant, and my performance fee came in recently. This means I won’t have to starve for a month because of buying this gift.
I didn’t just buy a gift for you, Yuan! I also bought a few things for myself.
Thin lace socks, tea leaves from Diam, a good quality scarf, and a sky-blue dress for auditions.
Until now, I always wore the same gray cotton dress for auditions. It’s a dress with the advantage and disadvantage of being suitable for any occasion.
The new dress I bought has a soft lining and falls to the middle of my calves. The sleeve ends have delicate embroidery of cherries and bluebirds. They’re so small I need a magnifying glass to see them, but I can feel their bumpy texture with my fingertips.
Changing clothes won’t change my skills, but…… who knows? Maybe the new dress will bring me luck, and it’s almost summer anyway.
Oh, the important news doesn’t end here!
In a month, the Roju City Theater Company is holding a workshop, and I submitted an application! They select mainly junior actors and train together for about six weeks. The training fee is quite substantial, so I couldn’t even dream of it last year…… but this time I think I can manage it somehow.
Actually, if I get in, I’m more worried about my part-time job than the cost. The workshop runs eight hours a day, five days a week, which directly overlaps with my working hours. Of course, if I have to choose just one, I’d quit the part-time job, but……
Ah! Let me clarify in advance, I’m not asking you to suddenly send a stack of checks. I’m just being indulgent as a friend.
Well, it’s too early to worry about that. For now, I should just pray and pray to be selected.
Oh my, it’s already time to go to the restaurant. I hope you like the gift.
Do you have a flight today? I pray for your safe return.
April 21,
Praying for a friend’s peace, Perry.
P.S. I passed the document screening! Hooray! Though I still have an interview…… Wish me luck, Yuan. As you always have.
P.P.S. You’re not planning to preserve the tie pin forever too, are you? If you like it, please use it yourself. I may not be able to see it, but I’d be overjoyed if you wear it well.
P.P.P.S. Can you eat proper meals on the airplane? I fried donuts today. The most basic type of donuts with hardened sugar syrup.]
[★Dear Perry☆
I don’t know where to begin answering your flurry of letters. If there are any questions I’ve missed, please let me know in your next letter. It’s absolutely not intentional. I’m currently writing this reply with all of your letters laid out in order.
- For all the time Perry was, is, and will be an actress, I am your fan.
- As you guessed, I did not burn your letter, and
- I’m always sending my share of luck to you, so don’t worry.
- Today when I received your letter is my day off! That’s why I’m writing this letter so leisurely.
- I will definitely use the gift. Though I’d be sad if it got even a speck of dust outside, if it makes you happy, gladly. It’s the gift I like most among all I’ve received.
Are there any more questions? I don’t see any more.
As I’ve said repeatedly, anyone with reasonable judgment wouldn’t miss your acting. “Perry Humble” is probably already on the workshop participant list. Especially if the organizers have insight befitting the theater company’s reputation.
Though I’m disappointed my checkbook won’t see the light of day…… how about discussing the restaurant matter with the owner? Since I only know them through connections, I can’t be certain, but if you explain your situation, they might accommodate you for about six weeks.
With luck, they might even shift your working hours. As you said, if they’re a generous person who cares about their employees, they won’t ignore a diligent employee’s circumstances.
My reply was delayed due to a tight flight schedule. Perhaps because the weather is good, my colleagues each had many “absolutely unmissable” schedules and asked for consideration. I plan to use consecutive vacation days during the period of your next production.
Just imagining it fills my soul. I feel like I could go without eating until tomorrow.
Today too, I pray for your safety and good fortune.
April 29,
From Yuan Bellium.
P.S. I’m enclosing tea leaves I’ve purchased from Diam. They have a stronger aroma than before—which do you prefer?
P.P.S. I just bought packaged donuts. I chose the most basic ones with sugar syrup, like yours, Perry. For lunch, I had tomato caprese, toasted bread, and potato soup.
P.P.P.S. I forgot this question. There are differences between airlines, but pilots eat in-flight meals just like passengers. Don’t worry, we don’t go hungry.]
[Good news! I got accepted into the workshop! They want me to start from the 17th of next month!
There were 217 applicants this year. For a workshop that only accepts twenty people. And I made it, my goodness!
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